Personal experience says books are great for unrealistic expectations about motherhood 😂. But it's great to get perspective. Nothing prepares you for the rollercoaster emotions of being a mom, it is the best when everyone is happy and healthy and so awful when you can't take away what it is that's hurting your child. Gut instinct is usually right, nature definitely finds a way. When it's time, you'll be a great parent, the concern you're feeling now is part of it 😊.  

 My wonderful friend lent us several books I didn’t crack 😂 I learned most of the things about pregnancy and parenting which I learned before the birth from the internet or from people I know. 
That’s not to say books aren’t useful!  Just don’t feel like you will fail if you don’t read one. 

 Did the books help me 🤔? Yes and no. In any case, reading them has given me a lot to think about. Also what kind of birth I wanted (I always gave birth on an outpatient basis), as far as nutrition was concerned (I didn't want industrial baby food). But it was also difficult to deal with the fact that many things turned out quite differently than I had imagined. So books gave me an idea and a sense of direction, but in the end, real life was completely different. Unfortunately, my family (parents and siblings) lived very far away from me at the time, so the first few months were pretty tough. I was overwhelmed. But that was okay. My son and I did it together and learned from each other.