I can only speak for myself. I have been through trauma (more than once). Never did I question His overarching care for me and directing my paths. He calmed my fears at all times, even in the midst of chaos and pain. When I faced doubt, He sent me obvious and palpable signs of His presence, even when the circumstance(s) didn't change whatsoever. I still live with the fallout(s) of those times. God is good, all the time. That doesn't mean I get the life I want all the time. It means He is worthy of my trust no matter what because of Who He is, what He's done, and what He's promised me. I can't imagine going back to not knowing Him at all, and by His grace, that will never happen. 

 My honest thought was, “I’ve graduated to a new level.” And I believed the implication of happening on my birthday was to work to find the gifts inside. 
There are deep riches is the dark places if you continue to believe.