Lately I've been exhausted from trying to figure out what direction life's going next, there's just so many options. Narrowing down where to place commitment is tricky when so many things sound interesting & feasible. The kid in the candy store always ends up feeling sick afterwards.
It's taken me a long time to realize why I've felt so stuck for so long but I'm relieved to have some perspective now. A couple sleepless nights aren’t a bad thing, when the ceiling finally gives up its sercets. Shifting from one focus to another requires a lot of attention and intention. Figuring out what that next focus is, deserves it's own type of respect.
I've been neglecting that part, because I didn't really want to admit to myself that I can't do everything. Instead, I've been letting myself become obligated to the needs & whims of others, filling any spare time with mindless & stressful noise rather than the beautiful tune of inspiration or some silent space to sort it all out... thinking "I'll figure this out eventually"... which I guess isn't wrong but also not right. I still have no idea what I want to do, but I know I'm not going to figure it out of I don't spend some time with it.
Flawed human confession... feels good lol💜
Some deep diving to figure out what its all in service of, rather than looking at the immediate things you need to do, or what they're a means to an end of. See if there are more direct paths you can take 🫂
See that's the thing, so many paths 😂 I almost talked myself into buying a rage room yesterday. I got to the point on another interest, that when I realized I'd need 10 acres of industrial land and a 10k sq ft building for proof of concept, it just started feeling a little bigger than me. I have a dozen other ideas of what I want to do. I'm a multitasker extraordinaire, so it's tough to let go of any enticing idea
> multitasker extraordinare
Not relatable at all 🫣😅
Constraints help focus inspiration vs the intimidation brought by a blank page. Maybe pulling back, removing everything non essential for a while some to have some recalibration. See how you feel then and then bring back more things into your life.
Yeah, I've been working on that. Finally cleared out enough crap to see the problem.
you just took some time with it writing this, don't you think? you know the way. maybe it starts being with you and with what you feel - I think that's where the most powerful decisions are made.
You are such a sweetheart, Pollyanna. Thank you.
I suppose I could've just said:
Decision Paralysis
...but that doesnt seem very relatable 😂
Omg I relate to this so much. After working my ass off for so long I finally have a few weeks off, and I'm sitting around thinking about what I need to be doing. Cultivating projects, starting new hobbies, thinking about what comes next. My career basically requires me to think 10 years ahead, but now my brain doesn't shut up. It can be overwhelming and makes it hard to get a good night's rest. I'm taking it one day at a time.
Usually when I feel that way I try to slow down and look from a high view at things. Then wait for one path to become clear, the universe has a way of guiding you if you can quiet yourself enough to listen.
For me its very releasing to try to see it in this way: I don’t need to understand where i am going as long as i am comfortable in my present. Life will guide me to where I need to be going. Its not my responsibility. Only responsibility i have is to trust life. And never confuse the mind with life. Drop the mind chatter and keep observing what your body is longing for the most (and not the longing of the mind/intellect)
The fact you are in this headspace is a positive. If you just mindlessly float through oblivious to the self, that is the real sin. You are on the right path, regardless of the path itself. Good luck and Godspeed on you self reflection.🤘🏻
I relate to this so much
Missed you alt 🫂💜
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