Let's talk drugs! I've heard a lot of mixed takes on marijuana and psilocybin, and wanted to share my own recent experiences. 😄
I never touched any drugs, besides alcohol/caffeine/sugar, until my 40s. I prefer to not be impaired or dependent, which is why I quit alcohol and caffeine a few years ago. Now that my kids are living on their own, and I'm retired, I find myself wanting to experience more things in life.
So I decided to try THC & psilocybin.
I can see why people are split on weed. Productivity can go way up or down, depending on the person, the mood, etc. I find it to be fun, but definitely not something I want to partake in regularly. I get way too retarded! 😂
I won't smoke or vape, so I stick with a tiny dose from a tincture. The high can last 6-8 hours in my system, which is a very long time for a small dose. Not something I want to deal with on the regular.
I'm very logical, almost to a fault. Psychedelics never sounded like a good idea, but I decided to try psilocybin recently. I was anxious about what would happen, but I put some music on, closed my eyes, and relaxed.🎶
With psilocybin, I feel like I'm tapping into a part of my brain that I rarely use. My logical thought process is still present, but my creative side takes control. I get deeply introspective. I start writing a lot.
I'm already a huge music lover, but my appreciation for it reached new heights. I experience seeing the sounds. I can fully appreciate the space between chaos and order where music lives. The more instruments the better, which is why I find orchestra music to be the absolute best with psilocybin.
It's an incredible experience that I walk away from knowing myself a little better. The writing is my favorite part, as I'm able to go back and reflect on my thoughts during the experience. To my surprise, it isn't a rambling mess! It's thoughtful, emotional, and honest. I'll even share with others who I directly write about. It's an extremely therapeutic process.
Again, I'm glad I never tried any of these mind altering substances until later in life. Being a fully developed human, and having a better understanding of myself, helps make these experiences stable and beneficial. In my youth, when my self control was worse, I could have ended up going down a dark path if I tried drugs. I'd likely be a very different person today.
I will always prefer to remain sober the overwhelming majority of the time, but I can see the pros & cons of altering your mind. Under the right circumstances, of course! 😄👍
I didn't say "drugs are fantastic," I said there are pros & cons. I also said I want to experience life sober and that I'm glad I waited until I was in my 40s to try these.
Caffeine, alcohol, and nicotine are absolute trash IMO. I think drug use in general isn't a good idea.
I think to really understand you have to experience. It doesn't mean it needs to be a normal part of your life, but I think some doors should be opened at some point in your life.
Only when you're ready, of course.
Maybe irrelevant to you, but we are influenced by the deeds and words of others. Totally normal part of how we grow.
The problem is hero worship and thinking people are flawless. We're all humans who fuck up, but we can still learn from one another.
I care less about the macro. I'm working on being a better person so I can help those around me, but I'm always humbled when I meet someone at a bitcoin event who was inspired by something I said publicly.
People have asked what I've been up to since retiring in 2018. I like to say I've spent as much time as possible with my daughters instead of focusing on a job.
If you met my girls in Nashville then you understand.
They had the most incredible time last week. I keep getting texts from them saying they can't believe how fun it was. My favorite text:
"What is your life, dad."😂
I want to stay close to my daughters for the rest of my life. The only way that's possible is with a lot of time, patience, and love.
I feel like we started something new together, and it feels pretty good.
I have a feeling I'll be ghosting a lot of friends in the coming years.
Spending time around bitcoiners makes me question old friendships. I have friends I've known for 20+ years who haven't offered any real value in a long time.
That sounds awful to say, but they are so caught up in their dead end jobs and other bullshit. No care for anything else. They think the MSM and government are the best sources of truth. No interest in growing, or in self reflection.
Any attempt at deep, meaningful conversation basically turn into the "That's crazy. Catch the game last night?" meme. It's frustrating.
I'm still processing my feelings on this. I haven't had a close "crew" of buddies since high school. Even that was superficial. I've always been that guy people hang out with, but never a part of the "inner circle" or whatever.
I'm not saying this to garner empathy. I'm the complete opposite of depressed, and I don't stay up at night wishing I was one of the cool kids. I like having a close family, a wife that's my best friend, and a couple others I can talk to about anything and everything in a meaningful way.
I'm just wondering if it's time to drop some baggage.
Nostr is a great place for long-ish form writing. I love privacy, but I also love sharing the human experience. I spent the first 30 years of life keeping everything bottled up inside.
Never going back to that.
It's the right thing to do, but there's this feeling of loss over what could have been.
You see so much potential in someone, and they are simply not interested in unlocking it. I feel a lot of sadness when I think about it with some friends.
What an incredible week!
I feel so loved & appreciated amongst bitcoiners. I have immense respect for so many of you. To get a little of that back means a lot. I walk away from these events feeling blessed. 🧡
I lived a vastly different life before all this. I always felt trapped, whether it was public school, or the soul crushing 9-5 grind that I did all through my 20s.
Bitcoin changed everything.
My family is Greek. We show love through proof of work in the kitchen. To share tiny pieces of that with so many is my way of saying thank you for being you. Thank you for your positivity in this world. For standing up for what you believe in. For not only caring about future generations, but for actually doing something about it!
My wife has been around Bitcoin as long as I have, but this was the first conference for my mom & daughters. It's one thing to hear me talk about this part of my life, but it's a different thing entirely for them to experience it. They know me better after this past week. I highly recommend bringing your family if you have the opportunity!
You all encourage me to be a better human today than I was yesterday. Thank you for that. 🙏
Thanks to David, Mike, and the entire Bitcoin Magazine staff for putting this together. You guys did an incredible job.
My family is already talking about Vegas next year, so I guess you can expect all of us to be there! 😂
Uber driver asked if it's too late to buy Bitcoin.
I asked him if he thinks his dollars are going to buy more or less in the next 5 years.
He said he'll start DCA'ing. 💪
My flight is super delayed so don't think I'll be making this. ☹️
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MONDAY NIGHT NASHVILLE PEEPS!
Let's meet up!
Greko Greek Street Food
704 Main St, Nashville, TN 37206
7 PM
Open to anyone interested, but I'm also happy to eat octopus souvlaki by myself. 😄
My flight is super delayed so don't think I'll be making this. ☹️
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PS: My daughters will be working at Beefsteak this year! 💪🥩
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PS: My daughters will be working at Beefsteak this year! 💪🥩
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