I just can't stand her anymore. Every day is the same crap with her. I can't go home Becuz of her. She is never just happy for me for anything i do. I want to relapse so fucking bad you have no idea. Im miserable and she got me on paper now 4 years in a row, for absolutely nothing. For sticking up for myself. I have to pee in cups and take medications ib do not need because she's a possessed person who calls me crazy every day. She's no healer, she's a fraud
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I do not mean to sound like I am a know it all, because I am NOT a know it all. I had been drowning with ignorance towards the deeper darker aspects of the ugly truth, which I may quickly add in here, is outright more deadly than a bite from a venomous snake.
When an activation happens, like I'm totally stuck on this because I've went through this little process. One time I've had it happen to me. And it was spontaneous, euphoric, I became so lightweight, it felt like I was literally floating. From that initial physical feeling of it, I then exited my body like somebody had pulled an ejection seat lever, and out I flew right out of the top of my head.
As I sat there in the top of the room looking at what the hell just happened, saying that to myself, it was not very long I was out of my body or my vessel. But as I was in that little short moment, I seen three bodies below me, one of those bodies being of myself.... My body.
Dang, days of feeling off are totally, off, aren't they? I know know the feeling of not knowing how I feel. I am one of those who might say, "This calls for some internal quiet time, for introspective to do some self reflecting"
That feeling of being lonely, where nothing that we seem to do, is satisfying the hunger, or thirst for that feeling to be given what it needs to be happy, or to be content inside the body.
Yes, I threw some spiritsoul into the equation. Hear me out though, before we laugh or disregard the presence of our internal selves.
From experience and through trial and error, mindfulness, and self analysis, I have found that more times than none, these feelings of being lonely, are always a neglect of our inner selves.
I'm agnostic so I don't believe in just one diety, or one God. My earthly self, is more than just this body. This body is the materialized copy of the spirit self. This version of me, is the one people see. This version is modified and upgraded depending on how well our unseen copy(the internal self) is sustained and cared for.
Self care is more than just a physical aspect. The multi-faceted beings we truly are, requires the nurturing, and love that seeks to fulfill the needs that can't be found from the worldly paths. However, these paths eventually transmute into something grand as we progress through into a higher place and onto a more rewarded adventure.
I know this may sound mumbo-jumbo to many, but, not about them. Its For you.
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