I think I need a guided meditation read by a progressive comedian who spends half the time distracting me from my bad thoughts so I can focus on the sleepy ones.
John Mulaney telling me to think about my right thumb, my index finger, my middle finger, cracking a joke about giving the middle finger to a horse, cracking a joke about fingering, now think about your little finger. Oh, did I miss one? You have, like, 10 fingers (and do the thumbs even count?) - we don't have time for all THAT!
Now think about your wrist, your elbow, your shoulder...
@393f4547 I just remembered that The Death List changed Prince Phillip's occupation from 'Casual Racist' to something boring the year he died. I lost all respect for them after that.
@393f4547 I'm a little disturbed that I can't remember.
'Where were you when you found out the Queen had died?'
No fucking clue. Almost certainly on Twitter though.
@920d3246 I can only assume there is a great deal of both double-think and social pressure going on in medical offices. Maybe she is starting to think she'd like to wear a mask, but knows she would get it in the neck from her colleagues?
Also, the inability for family to understand 'I am dealing with multiple life crises on my own and already have limited energy; I cannot perform familial social rituals right now' is itself exhausting.
Arguably the hour and a half I spent panicking after checking my emails was more productive than when I'm usually not panicking, but I still did not enjoy the panicking.
>do it. So feel free to ignore.
I'm gonna do a bunch of stuff I am anxious about over the next hour so it's done and I can forget about it for today. This is not good 'pacing' but I won't be able to relax until it's all done.
1. Send nephew a voucher.
2. Wish sister a happy birthday.
3. Email work.
4. Email doctor.
Both my doctor and work have left me in limbo again. Meanwhile the estate agents have notified me they're gonna inspect (they will be shits about wearing masks again) and before that I have a parent visiting, so a great deal of cleaning and tidying needs to happen anyway.
That can't happen if I'm working. The stress of the inspection has set me into panic mode.
So. Stuff sucks. But I have to do stuff to sort it out because no one else will.
I'm externalising to help me>
>do it. So feel free to ignore.
I'm gonna do a bunch of stuff I am anxious about over the next hour so it's done and I can forget about it for today. This is not good 'pacing' but I won't be able to relax until it's all done.
1. Send nephew a voucher.
2. Wish sister a happy birthday.
3. Email work.
4. Email doctor.
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