Oh, not saying it neither positive nor negative way. Just pointing out my experience as is. 

No, not a good thing. At least to what I’m trying to do. I don’t have followers. I am trying to share my thoughts to the world. 

I just want to send notes to my self, to my own relay. Like a private journal. 

 I understand.

Can you write directly on your own relay.

I have a relay through relay.tools and I can post directly on it:

https://nortis.nostr1.com/