@John Paul Grips I think oft of what Kempis says in The Imitation of Christ:
「I had rather feel contrition than be skilful in the definition thereof. If thou knewest the whole Bible, and the sayings of all the philosophers, what should all this profit thee without the love and grace of God?」
ofc I have this problem as well. How far from the light we fall. 

 @Bungler this was literally posted three posts above