lol Dostoevsky was my fav writer. I always admired his ability to go so deep in human psyche. I was so hooked on him that somehow I bought into idea of suffering, deep spiritual and psychological struggle. My love life was exactly that lol. I don't read novels anymore, and I choose to program myself in more uplifting, lighter way. Slavic soul is magical, but unecessarily heavy. Self-imposed prison.