lol Dostoevsky was my fav writer. I always admired his ability to go so deep in human psyche. I was so hooked on him that somehow I bought into idea of suffering, deep spiritual and psychological struggle. My love life was exactly that lol. I don't read novels anymore, and I choose to program myself in more uplifting, lighter way. Slavic soul is magical, but unecessarily heavy. Self-imposed prison. 

 Are you going to brag to the woman you're with about how many other woman are like her, or does this "how many" not really matter? 

 The 'how many' doesn't matter.

What matters is the experience with her. Like: 

Do you really pay attention to what I'm telling you? 
Do you feel that being with me is what you want? 
Do you have any doubts?

I'll be able to feel these things, but I need her to say them out loud, in the most sincere way. 

I want a partner-in-crime, someone who doesn't want to fight but build together, you know? 

It's pretty basic stuff, but somehow it's so hard to find people like this. 

 I used to wonder if I could ever find the right woman.

Wondering about it too much stopped me from being the right man for the best women I've found.

The more faith you can have that she's out there, the better it will be when you find her. 

 Yeah she's out there, I know that
I know it because I feel this way 
Someone must feel the same :D 

 That's the spirit