cos, & im just spitballin,
if it is a threshold, a chance,
an opportunity, this idea is what failing it means

again, on the mkultra riff 

i think,
very gently, just a riff,
a sign of healing of liberation of truly being outside of some major major toxic gaslights is when there is zero shame, no loneliness, no bad feelings or reluctance around masturbation compared to sex w/ another


as in: 

who plays. when is a being, someone alive.. considered playing. being playful, the act of play 

why ever would playing with oneself be a bad thing. why would it ever be dirty, gross, weird, pathetic

like how intense is it
that over-culture has with a hammer & nails forced so many people to internalize the belief that their very own precious body touching someplace on their own body is somehow not allowed or wrong or, at least, the most inefficient time wasting activity of all time 

 tldr: a bladerunner esque joint furthers mkultras aim

to further rip us asunder

to further distance us from our very own bodies

to de-empower us by outsourcing & monetizing a healing, restorative, fun, free, activity