i'm very familiar with the theosophy and the crowley and all that stuff... i have a tattoo on my shoulder of a Chaosphere, which i had decorated further with some white ink of an alien's face, and for some time considered myself a chaos magician... and also, fuck crowley, did i mention?

so i am now firmly in the view, something that was born out of my discovery of prayer and my adventure traveling from Nettuno to - eventually back to Sofia, and the things that came to me during this time, that there is a legit God and that it isn't this "neutral" nonsense but rather this word refers to the contrary tendency towards purification and life, indeed, life would not exist without it, and life itself is literally this war against entropy, the Jihad, if you like, though i'm not fond of the associations of that word, i'll just say "I mean the one talked about in Dune" heh 

 Crowley's metaphysic is a pain in the ass. Maybe there's something to it, but maaan do I have a hard time with it. Anyways, ultimately you gotta just build your own metaphysic.