I'm going to tell you what I absolutely did not want to hear for 2 years of trying to seriously quit. Go to AA. I tried every stupid rule I could make up but AA works better than any other program.

I'm two years sober now and don't even go to meetings any more. Occasional sponsor call. My addiction years were brief so my hole wasn't as deep but get to AA and work the program til you know what you need. 

 I've been to an AA meeting before and it helped but it was also weird.  but yea, if it gets bad I'll go to one and keep going as I do want to be sober for the rest of 2023 and as much as I don't want to admit it AA might be the way to go 

 You want a sober buddy? 

 I mean, I'm going to make an effort poast tomorrow about Sober October and I would like to think that I won't be alone