That's very interesting to hear and I'd like to learn more about what you were working on. I hope you know that Bitcoin needs devs like you. You can always try again when you're ready.
I was working in a distributed decentralized database before Ethereum and other shitcoins even entered the scope. I failed mostly because everybody wanted to create a token and premine on it, but I wanted it to interact with Bitcoin, not to create a token, and of course not to premine it. https://github.com/wetube/bitcloud