Oddbean new post about login | logout I'm obviously not saying anger isn't sometimes justified and things should be met with response tho. More thinking of initial rage lol
So sick of thinking of scenarios when I should've said and done nothing. Kept silent. But no. They are now filed in the 'things to dwell on when you can't get to sleep' insomnia folder lol
You having a gun pointed at me makes this conversation scary and thrilling. Pointing it at me playfully without pulling the trigger reminds me of how you go through life as a powerful creature under such self-restraint. I feel l'appel du vide wondering if the next moment could be when you lose control and I become your first victim