Sounds like you're drinking from a firehose.

If you're ever feeling behind, perhaps sit back, and feel grateful that you don't have to ever think about "that time i spent $100,000+ on a month of rent" (yea -- that happened...to me...). Perhaps better to pick things up a little later and be able to take it seriously from the get go than get to think back to some of those moments.

Also, if you're ever feeling like seeing just how far you've come, go check out #Bitcoin  or #BTC  on twitter while it's trending. I know they call themselves apes anyway...but it's weird how accurate it is sometimes...

In any case, welcome to the party. Some of us have been at this for 15 years now -- allow yourself some grace to not know everything overnight. And feel free to tell us when and if we're being assholes.