It bothers me my friend thought being pretty was any consolation for being able to work on a professional level with aforementioned rock star.
It bothers me greatly anyone on a personal level sees me that way.. that I should be satisfied being a visual thing they can look at, and not yanno... a person with talents, skills, agency.....
It bothers me that both someone I've known for 2 decades, and a famous rock star think it ok to diminish me in the same way.
Fucked to think my career would be in hands like that.
Fucked completely that I get treated that way by both complete amateurs, and people in the god damned rock and roll hall of fame - while BOTH acknowledge my achievements and excellence at the technical parts.
I hate them in ways I have no human words for, only clenched fists and gnashed teeth.
@bb543141 so sorry for hearing this
@20e35419 friend..
Before I graduated, the rock star said I was qualified to teach. Then the year I graduated, he himself took a job at every institution in the area.
And then he stopped communicating about working with him at all.
So he burned a bridge and took all the jobs I was looking at, and knowing he was up for them I would've never been hired anyway.
If another job comes up, I dunno if I'd get it because of him.
@bb543141 I'm so sorry to hear this Nadia. I wish I could be surprised. In the year of our lord fvcking 2023 and here we still are..😒
@483faf46 completely ignored by somebody else inbetween their career levels too.. all gatekeeping my progress because of being unable to see past my being a pretty woman. Whichever part of it got in the way first does not matter, pretty.. woman.. either way.
They can't think of me as a colleague, no matter if I overachieve.
Are not musicians supposed to be stylish? Easy to market if they're hot? I am confused I guess as to what goals I was meant to shoot for here.
Fuuuccckkk.
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