It's fine I was grumpy, then I called Beave and went back to happy and chatty for a bit so it didn't play on my mind before bed. 
I think this is probably properly the end and I think it's best for both of us coz apparently I'm a toxic friend too 🤷🏽‍♀️
By next year I'll probably hardly think about it.  

 When someone calls you toxic it's almost always some kind of bullshit meant to make you feel bad