Once or twice a week in the morning. No more nights  

 I offer this story. I was at the VA hospital to see a doctor. Someone in the waiting room said something & I allowed it to anger me. 

Immediately after I was called back. My heart rate was extremely high. Explained to nurse that was abnormal & to “give me a minute to meditate & it will be fine.” As I calmed myself she said she was amazed how quickly my heart rate dropped to a normal speed. She asked how this was possible to “control” my heart rate that way. My response was by breathing & calming. 

Later I realized the way my body reacted to my emotions. I’ve probably always “felt” my emotions but never pinpointed it so specifically before. 

What I say now is specific to me & I don’t believe it’s the only truth regarding any healing or meditation practice. 🙏 At the time, I’d been meditating for years. It was an attempt to get past trauma. I had done other forms of therapy as well. It started as a habit to relax my body during long bouts of insomnia. After that day at the hospital, I recognized that by attempting to meditate AWAY from the trauma I disallowed myself the lessons I could learn from them. Maybe that’s odd. By “accepting” my trauma as something I experienced is how my mind eventually accepted it. 

Hope that helps you understand more. Truly. 😊