The deeper I go in understanding divinity the less I know. 

You will find a strong opposition to these ideas in the broader Christian community,  which is understanable, but if you stay connected with the one true God you will find your way.

The key to that connection for me has been conquering every kind of addiction. One at a time.  

 Absolutely, the deeper I go the more I am completely in awe of everything around me and how magnificently it all functions.

And I agree just being grateful for this experience and feeling part of something bigger has helped me and I try to overcome my many addictions.