Now everyone keeps telling me I am in a lean period and it'll be okay. I've been through those.
And I'm my mothers daughter so I'm sure I will.
It's just that I look at the lay of the land and it is so bleak. I am applying and applying and applying. And nothing. Nothing yet. Just gonna keep trying. But starting to think, my open declarations on my principles around journalism...maybe that's my problem.
I'm starting to think you can only succeed in this biz if you sell out.
So as I've said, I'm gonna keep trying to be the best reporter I know how to be. I care so much about this work and I love it so much. I hope my book gets sold and I hope it's a smashing success so I can afford to live and continue to do this. If it's not, that's okay too, it'll just be confirmation that it's time to pack it in.
I'm giving this all a few more years to be figured out. And if it's not, well, I guess I had a good run.
I think my favorite part of working there was joining the union that mgmt busted.
Most union members, who werent part of managements special little club, were supportive and real progressives and they made me feel like we were really going to save our jobs. And they cared. They really did.
We deserved better.
But on the whole, grateful for my time there. Met some good people. Got to write about important stuff.
Now everyone keeps telling me I am in a lean period and it'll be okay. I've been through those.
And I'm my mothers daughter so I'm sure I will.
It's just that I look at the lay of the land and it is so bleak. I am applying and applying and applying. And nothing. Nothing yet. Just gonna keep trying. But starting to think, my open declarations on my principles around journalism...maybe that's my problem.
I'm starting to think you can only succeed in this biz if you sell out.
They made me dislike progressives for the first time in my life. Then I realized they weren't progressive at all.
There are things I wish I could say but I think the owner is petty enough that he would sue me and since he's already effed up my life completely because of the way he managed his company, and I am now looking for work as a dog washer part time, I'll hold off.
I think my favorite part of working there was joining the union that mgmt busted.
Most union members, who werent part of managements special little club, were supportive and real progressives and they made me feel like we were really going to save our jobs. And they cared. They really did.
We deserved better.
But on the whole, grateful for my time there. Met some good people. Got to write about important stuff.
If you or anyone you know is looking to hire a freelance writer or a reporter, I am available. Feel free to pass along my info or send me theirs! Thanks all.
Sometimes people will send me messages that really help put things into perspective or encourage me to keep going and it is one of the great privileges I have as a reporter. Thank you all.
It is not lost on me that if the country leans all the way in toward its blossoming autocracy, that folks like me will be among the first offenders plucked out of the line up as it were. I've been standing on a hill shouting yoohoo!! for awhile now.
They made me dislike progressives for the first time in my life. Then I realized they weren't progressive at all.
There are things I wish I could say but I think the owner is petty enough that he would sue me and since he's already effed up my life completely because of the way he managed his company, and I am now looking for work as a dog washer part time, I'll hold off.
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