Now everyone keeps telling me I am in a lean period and it'll be okay. I've been through those.
And I'm my mothers daughter so I'm sure I will. 

It's just that I look at the lay of the land and it is so bleak. I am applying and applying and applying. And nothing. Nothing yet. Just gonna keep trying. But starting to think, my open declarations on my principles around journalism...maybe that's my problem. 

I'm starting to think you can only succeed in this biz if you sell out.