I think feelings of emptiness are more deeply internalized numbness. It's dumb to think enjoyment is empty since I'll inevitably seek it out anyway; if it's empty then why would I want or not want it? I don't have to be aware of why to nonetheless be driven towards certain things. Ah, I want to learn more, but I'm not smart
From what I read fat adaption takes ~1-3 months to get going and a couple of years to be fully adapted, provided the person isn't carb cycling. I feel fine, better than before at least, but I can feel how 'average' my energy constantly is
There's a lot of cultural disconnect from me and other people, I'm not sure if it's this is a common thing although I suspect it is, and that sort of connection probably can't come without a strong common ground. Always felt like trying to pick apart other people and find commonality in metaphors to me, so there's no feeling of snuggling or resting
If you're not getting angry over the opinions and hysteria of strangers then there's little reason to disengage, but it feels like people intentionally go out of their way to be antagonistic for shitposting/reaction provoking purposes. Getting a real life community either way is the ideal of course
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