Happy 30th birthday B 🔥💜🫂 I thought you were younger than me! Taller for sure, but you look younger ❤️🔥
Hoping you’re having an absolutely beautiful day, lovely. I see a very bright future ahead 💯🫂
I dunno how it’s possible to miss someone I never really knew. I miss my dad a lot lately, but I never knew him - not really. He died before I could remember him properly. I have 4 memories - him picking me up from nursery, him holding me and cuddling me after I was crying, me asking him not to leave me, and him dying. I think he would have come with me on my long walks and visited galleries with me. Maybe he would have taken me to my first concert and we’d share music. I’d go on dates and he’d meet the guy eventually and make sure to scare him a little so he wouldn’t break my heart. When I got married he would have given me away, and would have danced with me. I like this picture, cos it kinda looks like he’s looking at me, I think. I swear, the older I get, the more emotional I get. Most inconvenient. I think it’s cos it’s getting close to my 29th and I feel nervous - not about getting old, but I just don’t want to end up like the bird lady from Home Alone 2 cos I make too many mistakes. I’m a giant baby, I know.
My family think I’m really mysterious, which always makes me laugh, but I guess I can be a bit secretive about things. I’m selective about meaningful things I share. It’s not that I’m trying to hide things, I just find it hard to talk about things I care about sometimes. Slightly easier to write about it. That’s one of the reasons why I post so much on nostr (and twitter, sorry 🫂). Juuuust in the off chance I’m ever unable to be there for my children one day, they WILL know me - if they want to. There will be a part of me online that will never die, here for when they need me, cos nostr will never go down.
I write in my diary for them too, but incase that gets lost, and Mr Musk somehow accidentally deletes twitter, they have nostr. Here’s where they can see their mum post about the London Underground 😅 but also when they’re almost 29 and feeling nervous, they will know it will be okay, cos once upon a time mum felt the same way, and she figured it out.
Of course, I could always end up like the bird lady in the park from ‘home alone 2’, without children, living in the roof of an opera house… (the last bit sounds rather lovely though).
Anyway, now that I’ve spilled a secret part of my heart all over nostr, sharing far too much, I’m off to bed. Goodnight 🫂 https://i.nostr.build/XxV1yd6difwuHJ81.jpg
The best ❤️🔥 - early in the morning 8-10am and around 4-7pm it’s so busy you can’t move, but during quiet times you can have a whole carriage to yourself for a stop or two
Wow, really?! Bakerloo line is - I think - probably the worst line 😭 the lights turn off and it pauses sometimes. Always feels like it’s about to fall apart. Having said all that, I rather like it 😁. You should have a look at the new Elizabeth line - rather nice, that one
This is lovely 🙏🏽. Have you been on the L? I know about this from watching ‘while you were sleeping’ wayyyy too many times 🥹 one of my favourite films.
Wow, I have no idea 🤯🫂 very cool though. I don’t use it much, I tend to walk cos the dodgy lights scare me 😂🫂 but I will definitely check this out next time I’m on it
You’re right, jelly babies get too much after one or two 💯 wine gums are lovely - really hard though. I love Jelly tots and fruit pastilles 😍. Haribos still being no1
Miles from Recess Therapy taught me that ‘it’s not about what happens to you, it’s how you react’. I think about this a lot. Miles, you little legend. Gonna choose to keep seeing the most important positive - my brothers are safe.
I love people watching in my local park. I love how excited the dogs get when their friends come to play with a football. In my next life, I wouldn’t mind being a Golden Retriever. I’d have a really nice owner who would take me to the park to play every day and I’d meet my fellow dog friends - but I’d also make friends with the squirrels cos they seem nice. My owner would rub my stomach for ages and let me bring big sticks home. Then they would bring the sticks back to the park for me to find the next day. Or maybe I’d start a big stick collection 🤔 I dunno, I’d have to think about it.
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