Oddbean

Today is one of those days where I actually just feel like drowning in beer because I genuenly don't like where my life's at. Sounds depressing? Well... it is. One and a half more years and I might be able to leave this place behind. x.x

What would it take to reboot your life? New job? Different place to live? New people around you? Maybe sports will already do it? My advice would be to give yourself a chance and try to go different live changing steps.

A new job with peers to whom I can talk to. My biggest issue with this job is that there is a mountain of work that only I can do (and that's sadly not a joke). But, I have nobody to talk to about any of this, nobody to help me explain things to the boss and nobody with whom I can just nerd out about "Oh my god look at how freakishly cool that new React Compiler is!" or "RISC-V boards are getting damn impressive, whatya think?" I sit there, 6.40am to 4pm, in a corner, in the office, endure the constant phone calls they do for support about bloated Outlook profiles and stuff, while fixing bugs in our Kubernetes cluster, writing automations in Go, working on an SPA that the boss asked for and whatnot. The alternative? Move. But, far. Like, I would move to Japan - it is the most far away and distinct place that comes to mind. But, due to my visual impairment and being a foreigner, i'd be having a hell of a bad time. xD I'm at the point where I run away from IT. I follow a group of japanese idols and endulge in reading about and listening to idols. It is _so_ far removed from IT, that it helps me refocus. xD