@420f26f4 yeah, I feel like women not feeling like they live up to standards of desirability is just inherent to being a woman. 

I think there's another layer added to that when you're outside of the box of cishet femme white womanhood with certain body proportions. 

I think most women just want to be seen as beautiful and women. Even those super conventionally pretty trans femmes that are certainly enviable (is that a real word? Whatever I'm inventing it lol) had to reconcile the slow changes of their masculine body into womanhood in the society around them. It's hard to feel pretty when it's hard to even feel like a woman. 

It gets better as time goes on and people around you affirm you 💜