An unsent letter #journal entry from April 2024

If I had known then ~ all I do now - I Question 
if I’d ever have reached out.
Might none of it had been worth it?
We met years ago.
As two young people 
Oblivious to how it would eventually -
or did you know?
Did I refuse to see you? 
Was I blinded by our #truth?
Two broken people who were honest
Our hearts were
Even if our words betrayed us.
Admittenly (sic) | missed you. 
My beautiful friend.
I wanted you back.
I Still do.
But allowance of my want would hurt others.
My heart has been broken many times and l dont think l can break anyone else’s again.
That's The bitter #root.
You and I may love one another but that doesn't matter anymore.
Timing or something didn’t work out.
We chose our paths + can’t rewrite history.
You have always been beautiful & I’ll cherish the 
Older memories
The past six months have wrecked my world.
I blame myself.
It’s a lesson for me to stay quiet. 
I can’t destroy others anymore.
I regret this already but know the only way forward is to forget you completely. 
Your logical mind would - must - understand.

#artstr #love #always #poetry #life #heartbreak #heal a.nos.lol