What spawned tonight's hurt was finding out I'm not as accepted by my roommates as I thought. 
We discussed moving the date when utilities are paid. All I asked for was a little help remembering while I adjust to the new schedule. 
"You need to grow up and do things on your own. You're an adult, Koda" from the one who's chronic fatigue is why I often power through sensory and germophobia hell and spend what few spoons I have to do extra dishes, her dishes, to assist a disabled roommate. 

 Fuck it dude just keep on trucking through life. Acceptance from others isn't nescessary only what you make of your time here is. But dam yo I wouldn't lend out no computer equipment thats just crossing a line.