It's hard. I can't talk about my work in real life, and i can't talk about my life with the people i work with. I could get so much more done if i didn't try so hard to obfuscate everything i do. I don't think satoshi would've had to go to the lengths that we today have to go to, in order to retain privacy. I just finished a hackathon, and they wanted me to upload a youtube video showing my work: Oops, cant do that, sorry, it's totally impractical over TOR. Even still, it's worth it. In return for my effort i get the most perfect feeling of complete freedom to work on whatever i want to with no fear of persecution. I could publicly manage a bitcoin mixing service or a darknet market or a free speech discourse platform etc, and the worst that would happen is my web2 accounts might be taken down. If i ever feel like walking away from it all, it's as easy as deleting a few files.