I manifested myself exactly that within a month or two for the following 8ish years...
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A decade later today I return to the same place I declared that desire. Reflecting on it, it was a deep and true desire. And may e even desperate as I was really having a hard time dealing with the EMF bombardment. 
Now, what is it that I really do want now?!?! That's the question.  

 Finding the right questions is already a big part of the solution.
I like your thoughts.