When I knew about the signs of Judgement Day, I couldn’t hold my tears anywhere. 
When I knew about the surveillance and the psychological attacks to direct me, I chose to watch passively to understand what’s going on. 
When I knew about my gifts, I kept on looking for a logical explanations in the Quran and Hadith. 
In the past I advised everyone to wait until they are certain; that doesn’t mean to lie or hide the truth though.
I requested some bans for my family members and I feel bad about it. If I make exceptions, everything I did over the past years would be in vain or they will be used to evade the bans or lockdowns.