Just say it openly and we will all try to help. I admire your work a lot, I value it, I cherish it. No matter how, I will support it and organize people around me to do the same thing.With paid relays, subscriptions, donations, whatever available over there. Just don't tell as you did it may be heavily misunderstood.  

 appreciate it, the response to my post has mostly been “damus is expendable anyways”. I’ll keep building regardless, hopefully people will like some of the new stuff im working on.