The downside to high IQ is having such a strong understanding of how much I am not functioning well, and really understanding the remarks hurled at me. ...and knowing when I finally confront the ones who said it, it won't amount to fuck all because they don't fucking care. And people wonder why I get this depressed.
No motivation or self expectation is defeat. Depression replaces what has been broken but you can reforge that which is broken in you one task at a time. What other people think is irrelvant the time we have while we are here living. We can spend it contemplating, questioning, & tormenting yourself or you can live it & find out whats next. Either way time passes by in our one life we have.