and, oh yeah... i have DMSO/magnesium spray... just covered my legs... man, this stuff is kinda nasty... gonna stand with it for a bit longer then i'm gonna hose it down in the bathroom lol

and yeah, really really, tonight is a threshold moment... from tomorrow i have to start doing a regular basic exercise regime... the pain in my lower back was one thing but tonight my left hip went spazz and i'm over it... i know i can make this happy

and i'm in my hermitage now, fuck you all, all i have is canaries and blackbirds and tick tick birds (aka washer woman birds) and the odd madeira hawk cooing, and the sound of rain on my metal roof and the power literally just going ought temporarily just now because it's raining hard and there is some good lightning

i might actually shut all this down lol