You get it. 

I just know this is the way of life. I can't imagine lofting around not hustling. 

I wonder if it requires a change of environment and to be around more competitive people. 

But then again, I know that all the accumulation of wealth and status is gone in an instance. 

The humility of death and being forgot after a few generations alleviates the pressure as well. 

I suppose it's just to be the best version of one's self and not to squander your potential, such as milking your youth and attaining the highest level of athletism etc.