Thanks for this, beautiful to see that some reprocessing is taking place.
Luckily, I have nothing to apologize for on that matter. But while reading yours, from trained lawyer to lawyer, I was reminded of the greater and deeper mind virus most of us in current day society are succumbed to. Paul Levy called it the 'Wetiko mind-virus'. It's a deep, long journey into our inner workings, and there are many possible approaches to clarity. But I thought I just share his website and books here.
https://www.awakeninthedream.com/wetiko-book
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