Genuinely, I’ve said it before and will admit it again. I met two men around the same time and banged them both around the same time. Cause casual sex.
Both are perfectly adorable, adequate, sexy, intelligent, conservationists.
It’s just I didn’t realize the one I lied to years ago was also my childhood love. Big oops 🙊 but he probably didn’t either.
It is what it is. I joke about being a big sloot again but in reality I’ve been with two people the last seven years. Won’t ever **settle** for a casual relationship again. Some do and can but it’s not me. Truly.
If you think you want something in life, find out why, and if you still want it, then go for it, whatever it may be.
Facts. I’ve always gotten everything I wanted and it wasn’t because of family money or anything.
What happens in the mind almost always can happen IRL. Right?
Man plans, God laughs.
Struggle is fertiliser for growth.
We don't get everything we want, and we don't like everything we get.
I mean, yes, you can say that.
Looking back over the course of my life anything I’ve ever focused on with intensity I’ve been able to achieve. Not bragging.
It’s been true for me I believe it can be true for anyone else: genuinely said.
And you are neither of the individual achieveemnts, rather the whole journey, which doesn't sseem to have an end. Where to?
Dark side of the moon of course. We need vacation time to strategize & deal with our issues outside of this noise.
For a moment of honesty with one's self, and less delusions.
Only a moment … nah
You know me. If I do something it’s either all in or not at all.
Make your choice. Or don’t. I’m good either way. Doesn’t mean I won’t love and respect you. Never have I pressured anyone into being with me. You think I’d change that for the love of my life. You know me better than that FFS. 🤦🏻♀️
Not saying we would even work. We probably won’t. But we would be dumb if we didn’t at least meet up again and talk.
No pressure from me. Seriously. I’m at the point of no longer caring which is what you wanted: it worked. I truly no longer care what you choose anymore. It worked.
Released all emotional attachment I once felt. Love will always be there but I’ll never love you the way I did before. You’re welcome. You got everything you ever wanted.
poetic
I’m not an unkind person. You know that.
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