the first step
towards finding 
god 
is
killing him

its only once you have
killed him
he reveals
himself

he reveals
himself 
in the indepthness
of the ocean 

he is 
she 

he is both 
masculine 
& feminine 

he is both 
ying 
& yang 

he is the emperor 
he is the conqueror 
he is simply 
silence 

 in utter silence 
he reveals
herself 

he is contradictory 
he loves contradiction 
he is not what you think 
you can't think about him 

you can feel him
you can see him 
you can be him 

but you can't  think about him 
he is the killer 
of thinking 

he is the ultimate 
fruit of knowledge 

 cost of knowing him
is insanity 
is rejection of all ideals 

he is you 
he is more you 
than you think 

he is knower 
of the world 

he doesn't exist 
he simply is 

he is a poet 
writing 
a poetry 

& we are simply 
characters in his 
poem