So long story short: I'm always on medication. The sleeping medication lost its effect again. Most people increase it. That gives you troubles. 

So when they stop working, i stop taking them. Not gradually. I just do it.

And they changed it for another one, stronger, to keep my sleep controlled. 

When i'm not feeling the effects of my body being destroyed by abstinence and the new meds i'm working on a cool game with my team. 

 In my eyes, chronic illness is a good pathway to strong dependency if you are not careful.

Always try to give your body a breath. It will not be easy, it will not be fun. But if you keep and keep going forever you will find yourself in dark places.

TALK WITH YOUR DOCTORS and try to keep it under control. 

It is better to sweat a couple of weeks a year than loosing yourself into pills.

We are stronger than we seem 💪