@420f26f4 I don't think self-confidence like that can actually come from looks, even if one's looks happens to be what one is focusing one's lack of confidence on. At least for me, if I could do all the things and look like a goddess I would still be haunted just as much by the same traumatic experiences. These issues don't really care exactly what they focus on, but will just attack the first thing they lay their eyes on. Shit finds a way.

Self-acceptance is super hard. I've more or less given up pursuing it in the mirror. Even the rare moments of euphoria when things look good for once do nothing in the end. I think the only way I'll make peace with myself is through trauma work.

Or that's me anyway. Don't know how applicable it is to others, but not entirely useless at least? Hopefully? 

 @f98215e5 there's some truth to all that. Me finding a few pics of myself (I post like 1 out of 100...maybe 
) where I don't think I look repulsive will ever make up of a lifetime of self-hatred.