I knew her online for a couple years but we were only close for a short time. I never got to learn much about her.

She had disappeared another time in the past and come back but this time is different. I was always trying to get her to talk to me again to clear up lies others told her about me that made her stop talking to me in the first place. Before she left she made me stop trying to talk to her by threatening to disappear if I tried talking to her again, so I left her alone for a while, but then she started posting about suicide a lot and nobody was trying to help her so I didn't have any choice but to try talking to her again.

She didn't mention faking her death so the rumors of her faking her death or killing herself make me even more terrified. I hope all that happened is she disappeared to scare me like she threatened to do, and added faking her death on top of it. I'm scared the threat could have been reverse psychology designed to distract me from her killing herself.

I wrote a longer post about all this here nostr:naddr1qvzqqqr4gupzqamkcvk5k8g730e2j6atadp6mxk7z4aaxc7cnwrlkclx79z4tzygqq9ysmmhf9e5g6t8d96q2ftu5e