Love my node and running one. Yes, it is hard but who said bitcoin and lightning - being your own bank will be easy. Noderunning is a team sport. Join a community like Plebnet at plebnet.org so you give/get help running a node with like minded plebs. It is a new technology so there will be pains. But, someone has to run the nodes for payments! Install auto node management tool like LNDg to auto-manage day to day node running.