what i do is when i have some task that needs to be completed and i am getting tired and drowsy i will not masturbate until i finish the task - because i know as soon as ejaculate i will fall asleep

that's the extent to which i practice semen retention as a gooner  

 i’m attempting that but with long-term life ambitions. release will be sex 

 “ecstasy of living” is a buddhist concept. the nature of existence being ecstasy. not as a drug but the pure joy of life. french may call it joi de vivre