And realising this ( it happened this year for me) led me to be more honest. I don't really go through the world thinking people is evil and I am so virtuous. 
By being sincere about my evilness and sense of despair I can observe my life properly and not judge. Ideas come clear, not fought over or denied.
And I get a much more clear path and direction in my life. 
Otherwise I was just mental, dislocated, bent to the good side of me proving the world my goodness at all costs.
And I fell so much in debt by my words and promises and ideas. And I became like a politician of some sort parasiting and being parasited. Promising my goodness and judging evil doers.
And behind all that was my desire to manipulate, to own, to attain power, recognition, to punish, to tie, to make suffer. 
It's now clear to me.
How do I know I'm not the villain of the story?

It also led me to be less ignorant and innocent around people.
I tended to gift my time, my words, my companionship, my stuff, to anyone.
I was so naive thinking we are all good because I am so so good that I can only relate through goodness. 
I fell into those traps. People manipulated me, used me, and parasited me. It was the mirror in action.

Today I am more aware of the evil side of people. It's not the only thing there is, there is also good. I am careful with where and with whom I open myself sincerely.
I am much more reserved with my time and company. I don't speak openly about my ideas or plans. Neither of my feelings.
 Cookoon mode. Life is crowded with fools. I'm one of them, so I will try to help myself 

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