I wish I had the motivation to do it. I want to do it. But when it comes the time to take up action to actually do it... I can't. There's like something blocking me Idk what it is. 

 How can one muster the strength to start, to win over the pain? Every time I try starting I ended up giving up shortly. I know this is due to me being weak, but I don't know how to stop being weak.