Idunno.  I'm going to try to eat and sleep.  Things have been escalating, lately.  I feel panicked, and I'm feeling like if I got the wrong feel about someone moving close to me in public, I might attack.  I'm also getting the urge to attack proactively.  Idunno. I'm gonna splash water on my face, eat, take some emergency antipsychotics, sleep, and see if I can get sorted.  If I'm not able to significantly curb this daily mental escalation, I'm going to have to go back to the hospital for a stay 

 I've splashed some ice water on my face, taken some emergency antipsychotics, as well as my usual night meds, I've drank a lot of cold water, I've eaten a couple sandwiches, and I'm going to bed.  Here's hoping and praying.  Wish the what are almost certainly auditory hallucinations would quiet down.  Hopefully I don't get murdered during sleep, but, I guess that's the risk, huh?  Anyways.  Goodnight, all.  Peace and love 

 I didn't know you could get emergency antipsychotics. Anyway, get well soon!