Aria 🏳⚧ :therian:

Artist, streamer, and friendly neighborhood Kthrai dracogryph.

🏳⚧ :therian: :over18:

She/her

plural critter sharing a headspace with @zoranu

sporadically updated website: https://kthrai.info

tips/commissions: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/indirectferret

Warning: There will be NSFW stuff here from time to time.


I've already done over 40 hours this week.

I...

I don't know how I'm going to get through tomorrow...


anxiety levels peaking.

have no choice but to say something tonight. she'll be thoroughly pissed if i wait until tomorrow to say anything about going.
not going to be happy about it tonight.
should have said something yesterday. anything at all. even just a simple "hey i've got plans this weekend" didn't have to go into detail. now there's going to be so many questions. when did you plan this, why didn't you say something sooner, what is it you're going to...

*panicking dracogryph noises*

:dragn_sad:


and it wasn't simply about the money. It's the whole collection of things that have happened in the last few days that nearly pushed me past the point of no return. I can only take so much at once, and my limit recently is far lower than it used to be.


Overwhelmed doesn't even begin to describe my current state. I should have known life would find a way to fuck me even harder than it already had.

I checked my bank this morning to see if all of the unexpected early bills had cleared yet, and see how much I had left. I wasn't expecting that more bills had posted while I was asleep.

I thought overdraft was disabled. No, that was "only for debit transactions" and "for your convenience, ACH transactions will still be processed"

Thanks, really fucking convenient.

So now, I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

Like I said before, I'm not asking all of you for any help this time. You've done far too much for me already. This is more of an informational post, so you know what's going on.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/457/540/009/555/174/original/87c118948534a1b4.png


deep breaths critter... don't scream...

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/452/941/774/763/580/original/03d3cc5f20f188ea.jpg


Hi.

I got distracted. Forgot I was supposed to stream tonight. Also forgot about time apparently, as it's now... 4:40am... Whoops.

Going to bed now.

Stream tomorrow hopefully? If I don't forget. Sorry about that.

Anyway, night y'all. :dragon_heart:


Finally done with everything. If I were to start setting up the stream right now, I could be live in about 15 minutes. Going to the time that I originally planned on ending, that would make the stream...

About 10 minutes.

So, yeah...

Hopefully tomorrow works out better.


Sorry, stream isn't going to happen tonight.

Going to try again tomorrow night, if I'm not at work too late.

-.=.-


Stream won't start for another two hours, minimum. If that makes any difference to anyone.


I think I want to do an nsfw art stream. Ideas?


Despite my earlier concerns, today has actually not been too bad.


Off to bed now.
Actually getting to bed before 1:30

(Yes it's the second 1:30 of the night, but it still counts damnit)

Night y'all :dragon_heart:


"I wanted to (do xyz) today, why did you get up so late?"

I'm so sorry that my illness has caused you any inconvenience. I'll go tell it to fuck off so the world can get back to revolving around you.


Setting up a LinkedIn profile, I hate it but I figure I'll need it to have any chance of getting a job. Doing their little "skill assessment" things.

What? If I'm in the top 5% the bar must not be very high.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/354/876/743/497/172/original/60ce318c1ed4bd79.png


Not a big fan of how the only medicine that actually helps also knocks me out for 4-6 hours.


Oh hey.

I'm awake again.


Work has ended.
Physically, feeling worse now. Was definitely not recovered enough to come back.
Emotionally, meh. Could be better, could be worse.

So tired.
Just want to go home and go to bed.


Still at work.
Still 3 hours left.
Still feel like crap.


Good night, you wonderful creatures.

I'm going to go cry myself to sleep and resume this dumpster fire I call a life in the morning.

:dragon_heart:


the green owl has been defeated for another day


Oh hey, it's November now...

*throws peanuts*

It's fine, they're not nuts, they're legumes.


morning y'all


Work has ended! Earlier than expected!


Game boys

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/264/549/851/287/668/original/0acc4b286ae5d49b.jpg


mustn't make lewd joke


*shakes water everywhere*


It has come to my attention that I do not have an umbrella in my locker or car.

am now wet.


now it's raining.
was not told to expect rain.


Morning y'all


Night y'all :dragon_heart:


*THUNK* It's time for some serious computing


I need some weird thing to work on...

But what?


im genuinely scared


What am I even supposed to do?


-.=.-

I'm so mentally exhausted


maybe I should build a windmill...


Or just imagine gryphons in general. Any size.


Alternatively, the size of houses.


Imagine if gryphons were the size of housecats.


Forgot to post it, but I came across this earlier. Just odd to see in a thrift store in a small town in Illinois. Some tokens had Japanese on them, many did not.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/226/289/461/020/195/original/41811dece727d409.jpg


*highly agitated hissgrowl"


mmm...
To draw on stream on no....


Mind out of the gutter ò.=.ó


If I really even know who "myself" is anymore.


and that was back in 2014


Now I need some other time wasting project.


*deep breath*
(whisper) i will not scream...


Mrawrning :dragn_mlem:


ONE CRITTER SHOULD NOT HAVE SUCH POWER!!!!


I CAN!!!!!!


But can I post from the thing?


Grrarr?


FML I don't need this right now


Gggrrrrrrrrraarr

*opens eyes, blinks a few times*
Nope, still here.

-.=.-


Gggrrrrrrrrr


Morning y'all.


It's so late. Why am I still up? Really should have gone to bed like two hours ago.
Definitely not intentionally distracting myself, trying to avoid that anxiety and existential dread, nope not this critter.
>.=.>
<.=.<
 :dragn_sad:


Getting some food right now, then... whatever...


gggrrrrrrrrr ò.=.ó


I should make some telegram stickers


Sorry, being negative again.


It's like 10 miles away, and this is a 60 year old military jeep that doesn't like going over 40mph. Add in the fact that it has no doors, no heat, and it's like 50° today, and I'm starting to feel like maybe I shouldn't take it.


I want to take it to the show, but at the same time I don't want to drive that far with no heat.


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph yesss. For something made for communication, that's a pretty basic feature to be missing.


and I'm sure both batteries are dead (stupid 24v military system) because I also forgot to plug in the battery maintainer.


Hmm...

I just remembered that I didn't fix the heater on the m151

...and there's a car show today.


nostr:npub1zryf099wcq3ds7fdytn2qufyrtutertnuwvfhpgyyd0lk9svjufqakcxmj :dragon_heart:


grrerrerrrar

critter is cold

*buries herself deeper in blankets*


Anyway, night y'all :dragon_heart:


*growls in general direction of the clock*
Why do you do this to me, oh infernal contraption? Taunting me with your numbers. You claim it is late, but it doesn't feel like it. You say I need to sleep, but then you wake me, mere hours later, with your digital yammering.

While I do not approve of your doings, I fear I must abide by them, for the sake of my own sanity and that of those around me.

(various rude sounding grumbles and chirps, including one that you get the sense suggests an inanimate object should perform unlikely acts upon itself)


Had planned on doing another art stream tonight, but work went on longer than expected. Add on the fact that I've got to get up early to take care of some things at the bank (yay for horrible Saturday hours!) It means I'm not going to be able to do it tonight -.=.-

Maybe tomorrow night.


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph my biggest concern is that without going the therapist route my insurance will refuse to cover anything.


I genuinely can't remember the last time she said anything positive about anything.


I can't get out of here soon enough. Just being in the same room with my mother is enough to make anyone depressed

-.=.-


I was thinking about it today at work, and I've realized that once I get my financial situation sorted out again and get back to my own house where I can actually pursue the whole trans thing without fear of consequences from my family, I honestly have no idea where to even begin.

Like, do I just go to a psychiatrist and be like "yo doc, I think I'm trans" or what? (Obviously saying it a bit more seriously. I use humor as a coping mechanism, in case you haven't noticed)


Work has ended: good

I was not prepared for this temperature (47f): less good.

Current status: mildly chilly


I like the idea of this, I don't like the idea of a Kickstarter. Too many of those just take the money and disappear :dragn_sad:

https://petapixel.com/2023/10/06/a-20mp-sensor-in-a-film-canister-reinvigorates-vintage-analog-cameras/


🎶Stalks to the left of me, cobs to the right.

Here I am

Stuck in the middle of corn 🌽🎶


definitely not just looking for an excuse to dress like this...

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/189/224/933/640/427/original/f16687c90cf97b90.jpg


I'd prefer a hood actually.


What if...
We just make wizard robes a completely normal thing for people to wear...

Pointy hats optional


*SCREEEEEE*

What? Just because I'm awake, that doesn't mean I have to wake everyone else?

NONSENSE!

*Scree-ing resumes*


Night y'all! :dragon_heart:


Thanks again everyone for stopping by the stream! :dragon_heart:

For those of you who didn't, you missed this lewdness being drawn.
#furry #dragon #gryphon #nsfw

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/187/026/204/838/215/original/75e70aafa09ab739.png


LIVE!

NOW!

Get in here and watch me draw lewd things.

https://picarto.tv/zoranu


Sorry, snack acquisition (snacquisition?) took longer than intended. Starting stream shortly.

I actually remembered my picarto login!

https://picarto.tv/zoranu


If teleportation is an upgrade to transportation, does that mean I can get an upgrade to telegender?


Ok, looks like vrchat is a no-go anyway. Don't have access to the space I generally use for vr tonight.

 -.=.-


and I think I need to do something. Anything, really. feeling that darkness creeping back, and i don't like it.


Might still do it if the right critters say they're in, but leaning more toward art stream now if I do anything.


Feeling mixed about doing vrchat now. Almost all of that positive energy I was feeling earlier has dissipated.


nostr:npub1ml3vh7p9p2hh6r00s9u3xp4a4nkw8dee7d3z4xgmaayynn0c2fus938qk2 The glory of gryphons is always just out of reach.


nostr:npub1ml3vh7p9p2hh6r00s9u3xp4a4nkw8dee7d3z4xgmaayynn0c2fus938qk2 Seems to be a Mastodon in general bug. I get it occasionally on furries.club too.


and yes i could edit, but eeeeehhhhh


i can't fucking word tonight.

*With* and *Without* leaves


meh.
sketch.
wip.

Final version... later, eventually, something.

versions with and with the conveniently placed leaves.
#furry #gryphon #wip

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/185/727/791/304/447/original/7735261a3e8505c6.png


gggrrrrraarr


Posted a general outline of things to telegram


Or maybe I start posting it here, try to convert a few critters 😈


I was just thinking about it a little, and although I've mentioned it in passing a few times, I don't think I've ever properly discussed Kthrai religion. Which is a bit odd, considering that (for the most part) I still believe it.

Maybe a topic for the telegram channel.


I'm slipping.

I was handed the perfect opportunity for a lewd joke and I missed it.

What's happening to me?!


"This new programming language is better than that one!"

Foolish children

*Begins reciting ancient cursed Java*


Oooh! If I used something with a bit of cpu power, I could connect my drawing tablet!

I wouldn't have to pack my laptop around in case I want to draw something!


It would be a brick, yes. But it would be MY brick.


... what if...
I took a raspberry pi(or something similar), battery pack, touchscreen, modem, and just... made my own smartphone?


Getting the feeling that I'm not making the most of it being #Therianthursday


Alternatively, if no one wants to join me in vrchat later (I'm not hanging out in the publics) I'm thinking about doing an art stream, doing nsfw doodle requests. If there's any interest in such a thing.


Have to remember to actually charge my headset this time


Can't do any of the outdoor things I want to today, due to the rain. Actually feeling kinda social today, which is weird for me, even on a "good" day. But, I've got no one to be social with, so I'm just sitting here, staring at my phone.


Interesting developments have occurred overnight. Imagery of the gryphon that keeps appearing in my dreams has become a little bit clearer.

1) It's a male

2) It definitely seems to represent some aspect of myself. Can't pin down why, but in these dreams, being this gryphon just feels "right"


(sounds of a gentle rainfall can be heard outside)
*purrs*
Oh hey, good morning.


mrrrmmrrrff...

*chirp?*

fell asleep at my desk.

gonna drag myself to bed beofre it happens again.
.
night yall

:dragon_heart:


nostr:npub1zshy963hu96djqvqvkgzt835e2y0ervwnxh823gswlgwaerf54cqegs9yt afraid I'm gonna have to report this to OSHA. There's not a single piece of PPE anywhere in sight


Super rough, quick, thing just to get it out of my head.

#furry #furryart #gryphon

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/181/295/944/484/164/original/f186b2c6b020e69f.png


nostr:npub18athqj208gu93fhts8csyz2p3jkwtvpulcgs7xe20fnl07s0gdnsqmy75x maybe, maybe not, can't say at this time either way


hmmm

I've been reminded of something I need to draw.

I've had this recurring dream with a gryphon.
The bird part seems to be red tailed hawk, the rest... not sure, generic large feline of some sort? Kind of rust colored fur, sand-ish color belly and paws.

But it sticks in my mind for one particular reason. In this dream, I am this gryphon.


ITS #THERIANTHURSDAY Y'ALL!!!


it's almost time...


Living dangerously over here

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/180/629/929/012/594/original/f7a87108c807efd3.png


I've also been thinking about this one, and since it's a few months away I might actually have time to do it.

With the follow up to No Nut November being Dick Destruction December (or whatever variation of that you want to use, just keep the acronym DDD or Triple D)

Make a parody of Diners Drive-ins and Dives (or "Triple D")

still working out the details, but I think there's something funny there


Cocktober

*whispers*
 ...sorry


Or... try to remember my picarto login and do a (gasp) lewd art stream?


New quest: decide what to do

I've got tomorrow off, so I don't really need to worry too much about staying up to an unreasonable hour. Do I do some art? Games? Stream?


Quest complete!

The critter has completed her work day!


rawr


Actually remembered to grab my earbuds.
That's one mental health bullet dodged for the day.


I swear this never happens


sorry, I just couldn't hold it


looks like I'm not the only one to get too excited and go off two minutes early


Mustn't make a joke about it

don't do it


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph beeeeeeep


On a positive note, the car I dragged out of the weeds the other day started with no trouble. Other than being absolutely filthy, there doesn't seem to be anything wrong with it.


Hi.

"Morning y'all" and all that.

Last night sucked. I'm sure having to listen to me last night sucked as well. Sorry about that.

Been pulled into a downward spiral lately, where I'm feeling like I've accomplished nothing with my life. That puts me into a depressed funk, where I don't want to do anything, which in turn makes me feel even worse seeing nothing get done to make things better.

Trying my best to pull out of it, but it's rough. Feeling like I've got no one to lean on anymore really hurts. I know there are folks online that have my back, but there are days, like yesterday, where words on a screen only go so far.

💙 every one of you, and thanks for putting up with me 🫂


i hate this so much
just want it to be over


...aaaannd the sad is back v.=.v


Need to locate something edible. Not having anything to eat in 7 hours may be negativity affecting my mood as well.


Mildly less depressed now than I was earlier.


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph I'm looking to change career field, and no place I've looked so far would pay enough without years of professional experience or a degree (which I lack)

Art is the only hobby I've got that doesn't actively cost money, but it's not something I can see myself making any significant amount from. If I could, I'd be trying to make that my primary income and forget the job hunt.


nostr:npub1lunvfmz9sgk5hpx0u5jl8958jnjayfpjc0vl3qdnxd84r8x4xq2q8l72fd practically every job I have any interest in requires either a degree or years of experience, of which I have neither.


and now I'm left wondering what to do with my life.

I hate my job, but have no skills that would help me get a different one. Can't go to school and learn something new, because I don't have the money.

I can't stand the town I live in, but I can't leave because of the whole "no skills" thing. No place that would pay enough to make it worth moving would hire me.

For the "no friends" part, I don't even know where to begin. I'm a grown-ass adult, I've got no clue how to find new friends. Online friends are good and all, but its missing that in-person element, like grabbing a quick lunch together, or going to an event without massive amounts of planning and travel.


So, I normally listen to audiobooks or podcasts while I'm at work, but I forgot my earbuds today, and that gave me time to think about things.

I've realized that

1) I've had so many opportunities to improve my life over the years, and I've managed to fuck up every single one of them

and

2) basically everyone irl that I thought I could call a friend, isn't

Hence the "regretting all my life choices" comment earlier

:dragn_sad:


don't mind me, I'll just be over here, regretting all my life choices


Well, I'm up. Mood not improved


think I'm just going to go to bed

-.=.-


mood has officially deteriorated from "meh" to "blah"

v.=.v


Off work.

I feel like I should be happier about this development than I am.

Just been kinda "meh" all day today.

-.=.-


nostr:npub1fvyxl7njlx73jgqqpu5rp6xuf6myhstghyckpcuf2mdeszjpt2yszchjx6 I couldn't decide, so I edited a few together.


Ugh

Just saw a "comedian" on a youtube short that reminded me of my time working retail.

You weren't being funny. You were being a massive asshole to someone just trying to do their job.


*ppprrawr*

Morning y'all


*checks clock*

Ugh, I need to get to bed.

Night y'all!

:dragon_heart:


nostr:npub1lunvfmz9sgk5hpx0u5jl8958jnjayfpjc0vl3qdnxd84r8x4xq2q8l72fd if only it were so easy


nostr:npub1lunvfmz9sgk5hpx0u5jl8958jnjayfpjc0vl3qdnxd84r8x4xq2q8l72fd I've been told that we're getting some kind of android based replacement in the coming months, I'd like to get one of these to play around with, But I'm sure they'll just be thrown in a box somewhere never to be seen again because of "information security" or something like that.


nostr:npub1lunvfmz9sgk5hpx0u5jl8958jnjayfpjc0vl3qdnxd84r8x4xq2q8l72fd It's not the worst device I've ever had to use for work. But, the ones I'm stuck using every day have been abused for years, and have truly garbage software on them.


nostr:npub1lunvfmz9sgk5hpx0u5jl8958jnjayfpjc0vl3qdnxd84r8x4xq2q8l72fd Yeah, it was. Suspect it was a bot, but possibly just an asshole. Joined one day ago, only made that one post.
Blocked, muted, reported.


The 1995 Plymouth Neon is the peak of motoring decadence.

It boasts a wealth of luxurious features including; an automatic transmission, air conditioning...

(whispering away from mic) there's more right?
 ...right?

Doors! If you like doors, you're in luck! It's got four of them! With secure, manual locks, and reliable hand-crank windows!


Needs to be cleaned, inside and out, and I need to check everything out to see if anything is wrong with it. Everything was ok when it was parked, but that was a few years ago.


Currently weighing the options of an immediate cash injection from selling it vs long term savings from driving it instead of my truck.


Spent the day retrieving this from the back of my property.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/163/071/645/263/626/original/eb8f2c8333bc08a3.jpg


They also called me mentally ill, but with the constant depression I'm not gonna argue that one.


Just got called a pedo for having the trans flag on my profile.

Isn't the internet a wonderful place?


One of these things.

Also makes the pipboy from fallout infinitely less cool to me

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/160/942/656/449/601/original/7595e89ab0f4039a.jpg


nostr:npub19sgsgxvsy72l7mvlyyfc0cwhta5xufez5zy3qz5swqlnauysge3q49dkn7 Motorola wt4090


Having a warehouse job where I have a computer strapped to my wrist all day has kinda ruined the appeal of smartwatches for me.


Morning, internet critters


Night y'all :dragon_heart:


nostr:npub1lunvfmz9sgk5hpx0u5jl8958jnjayfpjc0vl3qdnxd84r8x4xq2q8l72fd excellent! well above the expected 50% increase!


*hurriedly shoves pumpkin onto head*

am festive now

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/158/409/554/889/877/original/efc11725939073de.png


with it being october now and all, i guess some sort of themed drawings would be appropriate.

but what?


Tried playing Quake. Remembered just how awful I am at shooters.

-.=.-


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph *offers hugs* :dragon_heart:


nostr:npub1tce92h78rq46svw5m0c45vl2gdy4megvhe4aqxursrhcdwccxaxqr5me2u D:


If the government shuts down, does that mean I can just claim everything here as my own sovereign territory? I mean who's going to stop me? the government?


Oh, and "morning y'all", I guess.


I could open the window and let it out, but it's all the way over there on the other side of the room.


There's a wasp buzzing in the window :(


I'm going to hand this account back over to miss "goofy critter"

If anyone wants to talk to me I'll be at nostr:npub1ku22l2afh2qgsaqn7mswspe0jt6qdkgn2fu5tv3m7ac9euxlc34qrkkkws

-Z


Alright. There's been enough back and forth about this. I'm stepping up and taking control for a minute because *someone* is being indecisive about things again.

Hi there. We've been hiding it for a while, but it's time to get this out in the open.

We are a plural system.

I'm Zoranu. I've made a few of the posts on this account, but some of you may already know that.

I'm generally not the one out front, but I'm making an exception here. This has gone on long enough, we initially didn't think it was a good idea to share this, thinking it would cross the "too weird" line. But I don't think that's really a problem.

So, here I am. I'm not hiding anymore.


now concerned that folk are going to assume there is bigger news than there really is.

maybe should have just said it all earlier.

maybe some of you already know

<.=.<

>.=.>


Maybe just before leaving for work wasn't the best time to drop something like that.

And maybe posting more about it on break when there's no time to post proper follow ups explaining isn't the best idea either.

Oh well.


And no, this wasn't just a 'think about for 20 minutes' decision. Been considering it all night. Feel like this is the best option going forward


Decision made. Implementation in progress. Updates to follow.


There are decisions to be made today, or maybe re-made. Depending on how one looks at it, the decision has already been made, but maybe not in the best way, and maybe now is the time to correct that.


Morning y'all.


The more logical critter in my head says "it's just a phone call, it won't be hard"

To which I reply "easy for you to say, hiding in here where the phone can't get you!"


and it's all over a phone call tomorrow.

If you ever need to freeze a dracogryph in terror, tell her she needs to make a phone call. Works 100% of the time.


The anxiety creeps in again.

v.=.v

[Internal screaming resumes]


How about we all chip in and buy a private island. Have a little therian community. It's only, what 30 million? I'm sure we can round that up by next Thursday.

#Therianthursday


nostr:npub1s2jwgt57uenjnlzmv352tk6j645qvsnfucs6ts29x72c6vwl9qqsttfnkw this critter critters regularly


The critter is hungry v.=.v


The other surefire way to summon the irritable critter is to let the critter get hungry.


Upon considering the dracogryphs diet, thoughts of the smell of the dracogryphs breath occur. Which leads to thoughts of the scent of the entire critter.

By human standards, I think Kthrai would probably smell terrible.


I've just realized there is a critical issue with being shifted.

Cookies.

I love me some cookies.

But I'm like 98% sure Kthrai couldn't digest the flour, and there's no telling what chocolate would do...

I'm suddenly not so sure it's worth it.


The quickest way to summon the angry critter is to ask the critter why something isn't done yet.

She could get things done if not being interrupted about stuff that should be handled by someone else to begin with.


Chime-in from first officer lewd critter: if everyone got shifted, could you imagine the amount of porn that would get posted almost immediately?


Angry critter has left the helm unattended.
Goofy critter has commandeered the vessel.
First officer lewd critter standing by.
All hands, brace for shitposting!


nostr:npub146jgwchwtjqxmsgscwdhjug80rwlm5552jgdmjm4ex4wdpusepns3uxt3c I've noticed a similar trend. I try to avoid it, but stress has been getting to me lately and dragging me into the realms of angry-posting, which just ends up making me more stressed. -.=.-


Angry critter is back

-.=.-


Tried to find happy critter and let her drive for a while, but haven't seen her today. Probably still in bed with sleepy critter.

Stop giggling, lewd critter, you know I didn't mean it that way.


Ok, angry critter seems to be gone for the moment. Anxiety critter is back at the helm.


nostr:npub1ywf2swpx4f2vqdp7vgdu5vlhlav0fycm89wc7xmpy6gv7z8wpxfqar8y42 nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph I would say "how is that even legal?" But surely the answer is lobbying and bribery.


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph at least you've got a union. My company told everyone that if we ever tried to start one, everyone would be fired and that they have a large enough legal team to make it look like nothing ever happened.


perhaps being stuck in an unfamiliar body, in a culture that acts opposite of how they think civilized creatures should, and being in a social position to do fuck all about any of it.


I'm not the type to believe in hell, but I genuinely hope certain people receive some... special treatment on the other side.


[screams internally]


had things she wanted to do today

now has many other things she has to do instead


grrr

critter is awake

she is irritated


nostr:npub18athqj208gu93fhts8csyz2p3jkwtvpulcgs7xe20fnl07s0gdnsqmy75x been thinking something like that myself. Once I get to the point of changing my name, I'm thinking about going with Rachael since it sounds similar to Rhak'shal.


Oh no.

It seems the youtube algorithm has somehow discovered that I'm a furry....


Like re-installing the heater core in my m151.


Got projects that need to be done, but also don't want to start on any of them this late.


I've had this idea floating around my head for a while now, but haven't quite gotten started on working out all the details yet.

What I'm thinking about doing is this: Minecraft, a bunch of mods, including VR support and syncing to real time. Take some time off work, stay in VR Minecraft for like a week straight, stream the whole thing. Make it multiplayer too, so people watching can jump in.


except bars, and I'm not doing that


done with work for tonight.

feels too early to go home, but it's also too late to do anything


nostr:npub146jgwchwtjqxmsgscwdhjug80rwlm5552jgdmjm4ex4wdpusepns3uxt3c this dracogryph requires evidence before believing such outlandish claims


Ugh, I guess I need to get out of bed.


critter thought she'd try drawing a memory as she saw it, instead of from the outside.


Trying something a little different, first person perspective.

Dracogryph kit resting peacefully under its mother's wing.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/135/997/028/110/244/original/353cb6db1994b3ed.png


Back at my house cleaning again tonight.

Found this on the closet floor.

It's my brother's old phone.

Somehow, it had enough power to turn on.

it has a voice memo still saved on it

hadnt heard his voice in over ten years
cried for
i dont even know how long
tearing up again just trying to type this

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/134/465/482/489/215/original/9df7d5846aaea5cc.jpg


For legal reasons I should clarify that I don't intend on filling the fog machine with actual neurotoxins.


I should connect a fog machine to my home security system. Replace alarm sounds with portal voice clips. I feel like the threat of deadly neurotoxins would be more of a deterrent than loud noises.


"what kind of MAN let's his wife back up the rv while he watches? a REAL MAN would be doing it himself!"

overheard on the way into work.

Gotta love working with these people...

v.=.v


Google just can't leave things alone

-.=.-

https://www.droid-life.com/2023/09/26/google-podcasts-is-shutting-down-in-2024-youtube-music-its-replacement/


nostr:npub146jgwchwtjqxmsgscwdhjug80rwlm5552jgdmjm4ex4wdpusepns3uxt3c I mean, it's not wrong.


Sometimes I like to see what sentences the little predictive text thing on top of my phone's keyboard comes up with.

Like this one:

"I'm a fucking adult and I don't know what to do with that"


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph somewhere in the middle of the ocean would be the farthest. But I think the farthest that one might consider an actual place would be Perth, Australia.


You know, despite the rough start, I think I might actually be okay today. I'm not going to push it and say I'm "good", but definitely feeling better than yesterday. Actually being *home* for a while last night seems to have helped get my mind off that downhill track it was on.


I don't want to be irritable at all.

I spent nearly a decade being a very irritable, angry at the world person. I don't want to slide back into being that person again.

-.=.-


I become an irritable critter when I have to deal with things like this early in the morning.

I don't want to be an irritable critter today.

v.=.v


nostr:npub17j5xgxhtskpcp0kjd9ldjhm3w6ggns7kkvfp44lk4qsrdwawmjeqvd0ny5 oh yeah, AWS can get fucked too. I haven't used them for anything for a few years, but I'm familiar with their fuckery.


Fuck Amazon.

Just got off the phone with my banks fraud dept because Amazon just tried to charge me $139

I knew my prime membership was going to expire, but assumed that since I didn't have a default card saved to my account, it would just not renew.

NOPE

They just charged the last card that was used, despite it not being saved.

Wonderful thing to have to deal with first thing in the morning.

Fuck you Amazon.


Morning y'all.


My keyboard lights up a ❤ when it's plugged in.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/129/817/981/452/000/original/1a45cd997a889441.jpg


Stopped by my house for a few hours after work tonight. Trying to get cleaned up and fixed so I can finally get back into it.

So much more of a mess than I thought.

There was a break in shortly after I moved out. I had a security system, and the people were arrested before they could leave, but they still did a lot of damage.

Worked mainly on cleaning up my bedroom.
Even if I'm not able to stay right now, just being able to actually lay down on my own bed just for a few minutes is such a good feeling. Reminds me that there's still something worth working toward.


Had someone ask at work today if I was doing the whole clean shave/long hair thing for a girl...

I wanted so badly to say "yes, and that girl is me", but just couldn't bring myself to do it.

There were too many other people around, some of whom I know are transphobic/homophobic/everything-phobic, so I just made some non-committal noise...

-.=.-


(or should I go higher? lower?)


Y'all are awesome :dragon_heart:


Good morning critters!
It's #TherianThursday!


That's it, I'm learning python.


Finished by midnight.
Barely.


So, I've come to the realization that I apparently sound more feminine when I'm speaking Japanese.

This does me no good whatsoever though, considering that I'm in rural midwest America.

-.=.-


How do I always manage to do this?

I'm somehow, once again, not at home (or any other practical location) to watch the #Monsterdon movie this week

v.=.v


Found a bag full of nuts (they look like 18mm) and was sorely tempted to make a "take a look at my nut sack" joke.


Ooh, a box of various electronic doodads

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/083/010/671/067/415/original/aac8a2641e755ec8.jpg


Just a little light reading...

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/082/971/780/435/732/original/cecab10fbc888ae8.jpg


?

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/082/938/930/067/032/original/dec3b8b44c0b0bd8.jpg


Why do I own three cb radios?


nostr:npub154r75reqguu8sdqmjzdgjfq4lkhuvxrkqglt36rqxysew2z7528sa82qxr nah, only place this engine is going is the scrapyard.

It got pulled because the oil pump failed, causing it to throw a rod and crack the side of the block.

For some reason it just got pushed to the back of the garage instead of being hauled away.


THERE WAS A WHOLE GODDAMN ENGINE BURIED BACK HERE

How did I forget that?

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/082/851/117/982/474/original/8179620e82197797.jpg


nostr:npub1ld9fx8r6hehwhclpw4h777pm9cx3qrfaf4c75zxkc8n6272ce8zsud0z07 what is green tsunami?


nostr:npub1ld9fx8r6hehwhclpw4h777pm9cx3qrfaf4c75zxkc8n6272ce8zsud0z07 what is green tornado?


Plus the occasional "oh yeah, I forgot I even had that"


So, today's thing to keep myself distracted is cleaning the garage.
Which has resulted in me asking "when/where/why did I buy this?" over and over


Idea for a completely unnecessary mastodon notification display: one of those scrolling text led displays like trains have to show the next stop


After leaving her nest in the morning, the dracogryph returns to find it occupied by another critter.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/081/912/363/554/178/original/c4970a116d2118a9.jpg


But seriously, what's with some of these stickers?

"Oh, hey! Happy birthday! Here's A FUCKING TORNADO"

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/081/782/012/827/116/original/03d040501a52fe21.png


Specifically this one:
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=JMgoc98c_rw&si=PqaGTseuwcc1ipm1


Gboard knows what a gryphon is. Make it a standard emoji that everyone can use.

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/081/675/129/773/616/original/109e67ae96a172db.png

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/081/676/190/505/584/original/51df9d2779ae0e16.png


nostr:npub1v6l3r9snezz0g673xzefwkw269hhzsw6neeldjusfwaa65dpvyzq59hqs5 so, wait a minute, according to those checkboxes, I need a modem for the Microsoft Network, and fax. But somehow I can get mail without one?


why are there sea shanties stuck in my head today?


Okay, okay... I'm up.


On that, Imma head to bed.
night y'all :dragon_heart:


Apparently with the upcoming emoji 15.1 revision, there will be a phoenix emoji. That's cool and all, but where are the gryphons at?


nostr:npub1mujxlgfe3656w5xg3mrje8vr4mr6zg8t7m0cdlqgxxmszglg0rhsnqry9y while I like the idea, I've never really been the sort to use macros, so I'm not sure what I could assign them to.


they're lighted, they're clicky


...also, totally unrelated to the last few posts... any suggestions on what I should do with these things?

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/079/537/890/656/391/original/de56155aa5925486.jpg


I'm afraid I didn't think this one through.

That's going to be painful to remove.

Duct tape + fur = bad idea


Duct tape applied

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/079/487/426/506/330/original/198de7071bbc49f4.png


maybe leave the pngtuber up, just doodle some duct tape over the mouth


Well, everything is ready for streaming... except my mic.

Was looking forward to trying Lonesome Village

debating streaming it anyway, just without a mic

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/079/393/261/489/959/original/0737751b2cd8645b.png


Alright, I've made a basic PNGtuber thing.

Was going to do a stream and try it out, but I apparently no longer have a working microphone.

*sad dracogryph noises*
(but you can't hear them, because she has no mic)

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/079/192/454/579/414/original/1265f73f9ddbbc3f.png


Alright, I've made a basic PNGtuber thing.

Was going to do a stream and try it out, but I apparently no longer have a working microphone.

*sad dracogryph noises*
(but you can't hear them, because she has no mic)


anyway, me sitting here drooling over rotaries isn't getting my pngtuber drawings done


When/if I get around to rebuilding it, I want to put some stickers over the tailpipes that say "Danger: Rotary Exhaust" in the style of these:

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/078/611/288/244/543/original/89082d49b539f604.jpg


Also, rotaries have a tendency to shoot flames from the exhaust. Which is an incredibly entertaining way to deter tailgaters, but the police frown upon it.


(aside from the blown engine, that's the other reason I don't drive it. I can't afford 10mpg on $5/gallon premium gas)


They're tiny, powerful, and make absolutely fantastic noises.

Unfortunately, they're about the worst kind of engine a car can use, as far as environmental impact. :(

Back when it was my daily driver, my RX8 got  10-12 mpg, and burned half a gallon of two-stroke oil every month.


(was tempted to put a content warning on that last gif, because rotaries are just so damn sexy)


"But why keep that old car?" You may be asking me.

Two words.

ROTARY
ENGINE

(alternatively, brap-brap doritos)

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/078/514/305/739/963/original/f4a17e2e886c910d.mp4


(also, the engine needs rebuilt, so it really isn't worth much if I were to sell it)


Sure, I haven't driven it in a few years, but I'm not ready to get rid of it.

I'm way too attached to it.

My 04 Mazda RX8

(Old pic from the day I bought it. Somehow that's the only one I could find)

https://furries.club/system/media_attachments/files/111/078/406/431/624/140/original/8cc313983d734a57.jpg


"you need to sell that old car of yours so we'll have some extra money"

EXCUSE ME?

WE?

You didn't pay a penny on that car, what makes you think you're entitled to ANYTHING from it?!


nostr:npub14fk6rx0mm6pg92knj6yy7x7vg646smqgrdymkecztcw9hwr097lsgeluph sounds unpleasant, but still probably better than getting smacked full-force by covid.


Finally home.

I say "home", but this place was never home to me. It's just where I'm living right now.

I wish I could go home, and actually stay there. I think that would help a lot, sleeping at my own house. I never have the chance to truly relax here.

I'm always keeping up a mask, whether I'm at home or at work. I'm always hiding something from someone, and it's so much stress.


I honestly would love to just go to bed. But I've still got too much to do. I've been running around town all day, and I'm probably still going to be out for at least another hour, then another 30 minutes to get home.


-.=.-

Been trying to keep myself distracted, but today it's just not working.

Between the dysphoria kicking my ass from the minute I got up, and my mom being... her usual self...

It's been a rough day


Part of me wants a fully animated face-tracked vtuber for me streams.

But the other, larger part says she doesn't want to do that much work.


nostr:npub1uvp0wys3zkxxxcz4nd64fzev35hg9nskwtqqpn00ckef8qvf0kksjqdlq7 at least the controller can still be used for other things


The only fox news I want to hear from is nostr:npub13s4prwz9qnrjcu40r6um8ppwnhwugddtuegw0x5g44japfekcpyquhp5lf


Open up YouTube tv app.
"Top picks for you"
Four football games and fox News

... you have no idea who I am, do you?


And now I'm afraid that with the whole IoT attitude of "let's put Bluetooth and WiFi on everything!" someone has probably done just that...


While I fully understand what a wireless bra is, every time I hear the phrase my brain goes "Bluetooth"


Autocorrect on my phone keeps suggesting that I replace mastodon with masturbate.

WHEN HAVE I EVER TYPED THAT?!


I'm sure this joke has already been made by someone else, I'm gonna say it anyway.

A: wanna smash?
B: what?!
A: yeah, I brought my switch, we can play smash bros
B: oh, heh, yeah sure
A: then we can fuck


If you think you can get money from me, I've got news for you, bud.

I can't even get money from me.


not y'all, you're good. you can keep blowing up my phone. just the scammers stop


1) stop blowing up my phone
2) don't need my account getting shared with all these randos


also, telegram spam forex trade groups needs to not be a thing


i need to get out of the habit of checking my phone first thing when i get up

not good to be hit with some of this stuff so early

makes the critter unhappy v.=.v


the dracogryph doesn't feel like getting out of bed today

but she has things to do

and she knows the world doesn't care about how she feels

just keeps grinding her into the ground

even faster if she tries to fight


blah


the nerves around the base of the primary feathers are quite sensitive, to help feel minor variations of air currents in flight.

pressing one of these feathers against something isn't exactly a pleasant sensation, but I find myself stuck on it. it keeps repeating in my mind over and over.

maybe it's because it's been so long since I've felt anything from my wings?

#otherkin #therian


mrawr
*big stretches*

*knocks over table with wings*
dang
*spins to pick up table, knocking over other things with her tail*
heck
*continues knocking things over*
halp