got rid of my github (refreshing and liberating) (lonely)


nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 in what ways does vyvanse alter your thought process?


vividly hallucinating light flashes and imaginary bugs due to lack of sleep(10 hours):senkohmm::cig:


:niggahopium:
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:SSBBW:


nostr:npub1ursggceeyp77yj9yy8kwuk4yg4ce60c75kqr66yjfxfnqe8whr8schdc0y nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 wtf did you do


nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 tbh i think it should be the default behavior, if you have a frontend for your instance it should be directly hooked up to your instance anyway


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 literally nothing serious, tell cassidy to bring it back up
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nostr:npub1kwugrw5qdm7qzgw4zduc6g8mj3z0wztn54av9vmth9uks4zdugeqp6qdsv nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l real goon sesh
real_goon_sesh.mp3

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nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 care to explain?


:niggaduck:
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need a girlfriend who poves me for who everybody else is :niggainsane:


:niggamountain;
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:niggagoodday:
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nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 nigga be on a hypomanic episode


nostr:npub1jm40a4vk6mf3ugh7cyc6rmcrld33wuqds03xu4agn0fje8l6ydmqfz83x3  :nigganerd:<(cats can't taste sweetness and even a small amount of chocolate can kill them)


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 manufacture LSD (it's way harder than you think)


just had the best sleep of my life


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 it's just like how int can be 16 bit or 32 bits :nigga3c:


maybe this wasnt such a good idea as i thought it might be :niggapensive:


nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d it would be black if A was 255


perfect stealth (yellow)


nostr:npub176cjqxztl6h6h3qldvwln38rwlw50aprq2fedadz45w9evvee2fqhem880 nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry it's a tor node ip address anyway :chinsane:


nostr:npub176cjqxztl6h6h3qldvwln38rwlw50aprq2fedadz45w9evvee2fqhem880 nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry :nigga3c:
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nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p i tried, she refused :niggaheyface:


nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d lets have an edate 1:1 on the salon :niggashy:


nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p nostr:npub1xanjytp3clslynd2hxlnxg32jzz9wafxj9g4x6k28sjgljasd8wq3qjlvy  C++ is very easy, just

enum{START=1,END=500,};
#define u using
#define C const
#define S struct
#define P putchar
#define t template
#define CE constexpr
#define st static
#define R return
#define F(x,a...) for(x)a
#define A auto
u I=int;u c=char;u s=long unsigned;extern "C" I P(I);
t<s N=1,s M=1>S m{
  st CE A f=[](s n,s m)CE{s mt=n/m;R n-mt*m;};
  st CE s v=f(N,M);
};
t<s N>S tg{u L=c[N];L d;
  CE tg(L C& sl){F(s i=0;i<N;++i,d[i]=sl[i];)}};
t<s N>tg(c C(&)[N])->tg<N>;
t<s,tg,I>S ps{};
t<s N,tg T>S ps<N,T,0>{ps(){F(s i=0;P(T.d[i++]);,;)}};
t<s,I>S pn{};
t<s N>S pn<N,0>{pn(){
  s sz=1;
  F(s i=N;i/=10;++sz,;)
  F(s i=sz;i;--i,{
    s r=1;F(s j=i-1;j;--j,r*=10;)
    P('0'+m<>::f(N/r,10));
  })
}};
t<s N>S p{p(){
  ps<N,"Fizz",m<N,3>::v>{};
  ps<N,"Buzz",m<N,5>::v>{};
  pn<N,!m<N,3>::v+!m<N,5>::v>{};
  P(10);
}};
t<s N,s E>S fb:p<N>{fb(){fb<N+1,E>{};}};
t<s N>S fb<N,N>:p<N>{};
I main(){fb<START,END>{};}


nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p nostr:npub1xanjytp3clslynd2hxlnxg32jzz9wafxj9g4x6k28sjgljasd8wq3qjlvy D is like Go with the complexity of modern C++ with the instability of ancient 90s C++ compilers (not recommended)


no mint, no life :niggaheyface:


nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 i technically am a chigger so i cant object :chiggerniggaseverementaldistress:


nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 i thought mint and mia were leaving too, no?


nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 the instant i opened my mouth you called me a chigger :chiggerniggaseverementaldistress:


nobody in the Salon mumble welcomed me :niggasobdown:


I SETTLE INTO A NEW MIND! IN A FLEA-BITTEN TUB RING PARADISE OF A QUEEN SIZE SUITE OF A WYNDHAM/MICROTEL/ECONO LODGE/RED ROOF INN/KNIGHTS INN/SUPER EIGHT/WHATEVER OUTSIDE RICHMOND, VIRGINIA
I CURLED UP AN OLD SHOWTIME SOFTCORE PORNO AND FLIPPED THROUGH MY PHONE FOR A FEW HOURS
PICKED UP A BAG OF SWEDISH FISH AND A FISTFUL OF CHOCOLATE COVERED CHERRIES AND A PACK OF MARLBORO NXT FOR THREE DOLLARS AND NINETY CENTS IN THE BODEGA BY THE WAFFLE HOUSE
I SPUN MY EYES OVER THE BEAUTIFUL FLORAL ARRANGEMENTS BLOOMING AND TESSELLATING IN THE STUCCO ON THE WALLS
ANYTHING, I FIGURED, TO KEEP MY MIND OFF THOSE GOOSEBUMPS THAT WERE RISING, AND SQUEAKING, AND CRACKING, AND QUACKING
AND THREATENING ANAPHYLAXIS AND ASPHYXIATION WITH EVERY SHARP INHALE THAT I TOOK
WITH THE THREAT OF STEVENS-JOHNSON SYNDROME BEHIND MY FLESH
AND I WATCHED AS MY SKIN CRAWLED UPWARDS TO FORM A FLESH NOOSE TO HANG ME FROM THE RAFTERS OF THAT PLACE I HAD FOUND MYSELF IN
AND I WATCHED AS MY EPIDERMIS TOOK ON THE SHAPE OF WHATEVER I FEARED THE MOST IN THAT MOMENT
AND I SAT THERE DOWN IN THAT FLY TRAP ASHTRAY CONTEMPLATING MY NEXT MOVE AND WEIGHING OUT THE PROS AND CONS OF EVERY LAST ROTTEN PULSE! IT WAS EITHER WILMINGTON, NORTH CAROLINA, OR THE NEAREST HOSPITAL!


nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p would smash him on grindr tbh


mint has a cute voice


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:niggabread: <- my mouth after eating dark chocolate(99% cocoa) to stop caffeine addiction


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 theobromine


>requires exceptions to actually properly work
>hidden heap allocations on yield
:niggaheyface:


raped and gaped by c++20 coroutines :niggaheyface:


recently ive been sleeping like 3 hours per day and i have been unable to take naps


nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p it's will wood you gotta listen to him every one of his songs is a banger
Front Street.mp3

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nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p i listen to one artist only


my liver is so weak it cant even handle caffeine


why do i become retarded when i drink cofe:niggaheyface:


nostr:npub1kwugrw5qdm7qzgw4zduc6g8mj3z0wztn54av9vmth9uks4zdugeqp6qdsv nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 literally 1984 :niggaheyface:


gm fedi :niggablobcatcozy:


i give up


3 hours and i still cant prove addition is commutative


nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 proceed


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 yeah like, axioms are just building blocks for theorems I guess, they just are and you can't prove them. also when I learned the the supremum of an empty subset of R is -infinity and the infimum of it is +infinity because nothing is smaller than -infinity and nothing is bigger than +infinity it just felt like good old enable_if template fuckery to me, lmao


learning math (it's stupider than i thought)


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 :niggapensivecowboy:
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nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d oh that happened when bara was posting the ascii art, i know what you mean


nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l so i type into my instance's shoutbox -> mint's shoutbox federator reposts it in clubcyberia.co's shoutbox -> shoutboxgangstalker picks it up and makes a post :niggainsane:


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 oh, so nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d 's bot has a bug? nvm


nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1kwugrw5qdm7qzgw4zduc6g8mj3z0wztn54av9vmth9uks4zdugeqp6qdsv nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 i dont care, let me efficiently spam people with the :_insane: emoji through your bot


nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 naw the bot has a bug


is niggaposting transphobic?


nostr:npub1ecj3mfr9lzvx7wh6fmh59vz6eet324mdtdlp9qxzqvwuvpglwnxqv6fchy nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1phpqxa6g888f6vrquzwxlx22s8qyext66v96gtexzmn083m772sq9m6l98 nostr:npub108zt8c43ulvdwnax2txurhhr07wdprl0msf608udz9rvpd5l68ascvdkr5 basically it works like (me typing in Agency's shoutbox) -> (mint's federated shoutbox thing reposts it in cyberia's shoutbox) -> (shoutboxgangstalker posts it)
:niggabrain:


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 i wish that were me :niggaeflushed:


nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 not quite what i thought it would do
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:niggabrain:


nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l nostr:npub1phpqxa6g888f6vrquzwxlx22s8qyext66v96gtexzmn083m772sq9m6l98 nostr:npub108zt8c43ulvdwnax2txurhhr07wdprl0msf608udz9rvpd5l68ascvdkr5 cc nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 my fingers are retarded


nostr:npub1v8jspg9u0hkrkkuhr5eu3jya0v0rk2ndlgvpydq8fu6ccj0kyclsmztl8l :_insane:


nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf
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you know, im something of cyberian myself


truly a sentence only a woman can utter


nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub1d2nzz6g5leutwsrtwaau5ntt6540vpaxr6kgj3v2pksf7t8q6m8sm3n2yu i know this is more a shitpost but that would seriously suck. diversity(not the misused variant) is a good thing. ants - they rise and fall for one purpose: reproduction. there's not much to that. we might perceive it as the beauty of nature, yada yada yada, but they don't think: they simply act upon their ultimate purpose.

for us humans the difference of our experiences make each other unique and makes the human experience more, well, diverse. if we were all the same there would be no need to think, and humans would be simply sex machines that reproduce every 15 years or so(i forgot when a homo sapiens becomes fertile). is that what we want? for some alien creature that might be interesting to watch. humans having sex might even be a good taxidermy ornament on the stucco on the wall. i sure as hell don't want that.


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub1d2nzz6g5leutwsrtwaau5ntt6540vpaxr6kgj3v2pksf7t8q6m8sm3n2yu found you :niggainsane:
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nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu nostr:npub17jxdp02k4xkynxme9vccg2c2fk89z3nnzzgzg8era7cmc5qyyyjsgzw2x2 nostr:npub1d2nzz6g5leutwsrtwaau5ntt6540vpaxr6kgj3v2pksf7t8q6m8sm3n2yu how would you communicate without language? for thousands of years language has advanced but there hasn't been any new way of communicating your thoughts to others other than nonverbal communication such as tone/facial expressions(but they still complement language, not replace it). clearly there isn't really a way to just capture a thought process without compressing(converting? but lossy) it to some kind of given format: language. just think of it, even if we were able to somehow capture neurons being fired to transmit information to some person's brain, is there a guarantee it will have the same effects on another person? it's limiting but it's the best we have out there.


nostr:npub1zhj8u3ap67ufls4rq44kt9u5mlq46ja6xjel32za2ajk8g75efnsevkmgu :niggainsane::niggafingerguns3::niggabread::niggablushhearts::niggablobcatwrench:


i just don't understand the concept of heaven - God, man. God. up there with God and Jesus and all my ancestors and ex'es(none). if christians dont party every time a person dies i will question their faith - "my grandma is such a good person, she deserves to die"


nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d it's crimson


new red, new me


cassidy hates me


thinking of moving to cyberia again :niggainsane:


god
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why is everyone around me depressed :niggainsane:


kill me
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nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p common misconception, many such cases
the language has a lot of rough edges but it's not always that way


nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p writing an xml generator in c++ and writing 200 lines of boilerplate for self-referencing types along the way


lesson learned: send your bussy pics to mint


reading the XML specification


>begin to write small project in c++
>quickly become autistic with "should i template this or would that rape compile times and should i just overload this"
mfw


im going to stop taking aripriprazole to see what happens


we depress to impress i guess


my past is a dumpster fire, my future is uncertain and i am currently wasting my time on feddyverse :niggakms:


he said im normal and not bipolar (i trust him)


nigga is in desperate search for a wife


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub17jxdp02k4xkynxme9vccg2c2fk89z3nnzzgzg8era7cmc5qyyyjsgzw2x2 did they use Ramanujan's scribble that just inserts a space between the +'s and does bullshit with it?


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub17jxdp02k4xkynxme9vccg2c2fk89z3nnzzgzg8era7cmc5qyyyjsgzw2x2 :niggainsane:
i hate mathematicians so much
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screaming at the top of my fucking lungs in the confession booth


i can't keep a straight face while im praying


rainy


did god just send me a message?


nostr:npub1lkapg2lfnzzpjrr9hneug2af63wh8c33ngrksaje05xwud5mfz2s5ajeym nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 no? just wait you impatient \r\n


going to study, for the first time in years


nostr:npub1lkapg2lfnzzpjrr9hneug2af63wh8c33ngrksaje05xwud5mfz2s5ajeym nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 thank you so much
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popped one more to froth and rage


i think the sudafed made me angry


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 god wtf, im sorry guys. i didnt mean to shit up the timeline this bad


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 im even annoyed at seeing memes now. i want to go up to them and grab them by their neck and shout "SHUT UP FUCK YOU FUCK OFF I DONT NEED YOUR STUPID PICTURE WITH TEXT" i dont know maybe its my mood swings.


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 ALSO IM TIRED OF SEEING WIGNATS!!!!! I DONT FUCKING CARE IF YOU WANT TO KILL NIGGERS!!!! SHOOT UP A SCHOOL HOLY FUCK GO DO IT YOU PODCAST-LISTENING PIZZA-MUNCHING AMERISHART FAGGOT


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 i keep my following to a minimum, i only follow people who follow me and have had basic interaction with. i cleansed a bunch of mutual trannies because they were going fucking bonkers and i didnt like them. your picture really doesnt help either, im mad, yeah, im FUCKING MAD. but im not mad because someone interacted with me. i just dont like people here. everyone is annoying. sorry for venting man. i need to take a xanax
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ive just basically described digital masturbation, im just fulfilling my own desires and i simply dont care about anything that anyone does. im afraid that i might fall into a bottomless pit and never come out


what really is my personality? i'm too young for that, perhaps.


human interaction really is not my hobby


nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 at least i wont get any feedback and the world would be quiet. i have like 2 people that i regularly talk to on xmpp and that's fine for me honestly. i dont participate in any group chats or whatever gay cages for the reasons you just presented. i just write out posts in a small website and blog there occasionally with actually deep thoughts and not "systemdick bad ree", which is what I see in a lot of blogs like that. maybe people will read my deep thoughts. maybe they'll learn something, but that's not my problem. i won't even list my email in those websites.


nostr:npub1p5qy72ydyxlnyehhqtjdf8ve9aegr30nfu0tan4424eyvjdmd27sg8q5r0 fedi is good for interacting quickly but information is quick to erode here. also im tired of seeing vim vs emacs (or whatever other competing softwares) debates popping up in my home timeline, might as well be on hackernews for that, i sometimes have genuinely useful conversations but they're rare (they're the things that keep me here though), most are just meaningless shitflinging and drama that i dont really care about (some are interesting but most are garbage)
better to just dig my own nuke bunker in nameless networks and pray to god someone will read my effortposts


thinking of quitting fedi and starting a small website in the corners of tor,i2p,&yggdrasil (just thinking, im stuck here forever)


ive been sneezing for 10 minutes straight, sudafed is not helping


sertraline must be the most irritating substance my nasal cavity has encountered since pure capsaicin


i wonder how many terabytes of traffic have been wasted in emacs vs vim debates


snorted zoloft and my eyeballs fell off into the bonfire


after seeing enough monotonous and repeated software arguments on nerdwebsite #42069 you begin to wonder if time isn't real


i dont understand "people" who try to put their desktop setup/hardware/software choice/whatever in their bio and try to write a small paragraph summing their entire "personality" up like "i like linux, security, privacy blah blah blm acab". are you really that much of a simpleton that can be summed up in a single paragraph and your software choice?


:niggainsane:
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come to think of it my first nickname was from this song


just took my meds


one of my favorite songs
Dr. Sunshine Is Dead.mp3

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2012.mp3

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nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 >Cool nerds and passing masochistic trannies
literally me (not telling which one)


wsl users seem to possess subzero iq


Red Moon.opus

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nostr:npub1tu79c4h0rn2whz53zuslrvcjy9gvpusfdz6zlld4yy30h9xrmcssc7knev wüsthof


nostr:npub1xanjytp3clslynd2hxlnxg32jzz9wafxj9g4x6k28sjgljasd8wq3qjlvy it's helpful moral advice, resisting it would not make me a better person


i feel like my superego has gained a voice in my brain as a separate identity instead of being integrated in my ego. it's talking to me about every single action i take and analyzing them, i havent seen this happen to me before


merry christmas fedi


ingesting benzodiazepines


tell me more about this mkultra thing on fse


nightmares up in the sky


take it easy


quick, while she turns her back, sllip it in


fat chinless turtle in my zoo


nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf hows compatibility with the nvidia card?


xmpp server down again:niggaheyface:


>netbsd
unfathomable autism level


nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d weird, i thought most i2p nodes were in Russia so you'd get more traffic.


absorbed 660kcal in 5 minutes


transformation (shade of red)


gm fedi :blobcatcoffee:


thinking of ways to be linguistically retarded


nostr:npub1806tnus5yhy3ltgqpp6ervpqp0n9ln59kt228e7ejt9k3etdr5qs7hdzue nostr:npub10ze7guqzj0kf8ayzzp605y2rwsczqny0afjyyt52fcl9nuttju2qahmjrr nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 nostr:npub1g4x8s96tznuhsaw70vje4qanu4gcewcqh7xdywc4fywhsnsrxcjsyrm0az think again(turing machine in c++ templates)
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nostr:npub1806tnus5yhy3ltgqpp6ervpqp0n9ln59kt228e7ejt9k3etdr5qs7hdzue nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 the fact that such people who can deliver very high quality software with just grinding rocks (Fabrice Bellard comes to mind) are very limited and the ones who would actually work for a company(Ken Thompson, Rob Pike) are even more limited doesn't really help raise the awareness that we need more technological cavemen in the industry


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 cnile, because at least soydevs actually code


losing my grip on reality (he replied to me after 4 minutes)


nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p huh
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nostr:npub17dye8wm0l9w9qdsmvxw078ednfzaa9sw7xngsgwetvj8slv98mesn6yf4p if dreams can come true what does that say about nightmares


nostr:npub1v96a5ce23jgc0fpk3uxg44nm3fhgsnck63tf2ja98vwkq6tvgpus2v8jt9 nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 disabling all other cores except for one to utilize all the cpu cache sometimes helps a lot(eg hft)


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 flashback to that one time i wrote a server backend that used avx512 for parsing requests and response template files:niggainsane:


nostr:npub1y6tk68elxfcrz8yx5kf32agav67hwz4rt2ff22f8rl98yxh7uxhsx69wl9 simd stuff or some latency sensitive network related stuff?


why do i end up only talking to eastern europeans in the end :niggaheyface:


me try not to leak a million personal secrets while talking to someone challenge[IMPOSSIBLE]


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 but what for?


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 matrix.eientei.org


it's utterly bizarre to me how people use the exact same username for everything and their email thus making it so easy for me to gangstalk them and then be terrified


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 honestly its kinda funny how they still require alignment when unaligned operations literally don't make any speed difference on modern hardware


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 we can just rsp&=~0xf for PUSH2 but im not sure how we can do assure RSP is aligned before we POP2 :niggapensivecowboy:


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 now we have to deal with CCmpCtrl and CCMPcc sounding similar in TempleOS 6.09:niggaheyface:


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 a whole new plethora of conditional instructions sounds like the biggest improvement here


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 you gotta take a look at this https://www.intel.com/content/www/us/en/developer/articles/technical/advanced-performance-extensions-apx.html


i think they might go to hell


nostr:npub1xanjytp3clslynd2hxlnxg32jzz9wafxj9g4x6k28sjgljasd8wq3qjlvy i dont really care and i never understood two indistinguishable ethnicities fighting over bullshit that happened 100+ years ago. asians are pretty petty


oh its just the booze talking and its speaking Japanese, konichiwa!


nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 3am for me


gn fedi :niggablobcatcozy:


i probably need to take mood stabilizers


nostr:npub1kwugrw5qdm7qzgw4zduc6g8mj3z0wztn54av9vmth9uks4zdugeqp6qdsv nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 nvm im just a bit hysteric from meds


i want to hope that this is me just being temporarily irritable from the meds


nostr:npub1kwugrw5qdm7qzgw4zduc6g8mj3z0wztn54av9vmth9uks4zdugeqp6qdsv nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 why wont you cut it off then? we sure would live in a utopia if we didn't have linux:niggaeyeroll:lets disregard Windows for juuuuuuust a sec, why wouldn't we?


WOW THANKS FOR CALLING ME RETARDED! I DEFINITELY DIDNT KNOW ANYTHING YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


nostr:npub1cscte8jwv73h8t7qus0m86vxw2skc3jnekxpsq9q38npctrurx4sjckqq2 linux took a bit of everything like memory mapped files from Multics and per-process namespaces from Plan 9, its not like it doesn't constantly evolve and grow


i know creation aint real cuz god wouldve kept the dinos not some hairless apes lmao


marsey is dead


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub1xvspvq6p80ldc5dnqmtkvxzndx6zm0x9w2rpewm83u2nj0j75t2qcy2tnx nostr:npub1f8ledq6ja34pn4504vdzzlrv70cu63hvzz5tka229prma42c677qkk7frq nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry nostr:npub1xanjytp3clslynd2hxlnxg32jzz9wafxj9g4x6k28sjgljasd8wq3qjlvy nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf nostr:npub140axf53xswxgpeft3u908zz4ktr2uemwd5gp89djw0xezp7ahsrshesnr9 nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d nostr:npub1pnpez7cn4h04pxg07dmmklzyz7u7fm0w2ddrw220qh785rq3m42ql452zw that is so retarded only a webdev could have done it


nostr:npub1xvspvq6p80ldc5dnqmtkvxzndx6zm0x9w2rpewm83u2nj0j75t2qcy2tnx nostr:npub1f8ledq6ja34pn4504vdzzlrv70cu63hvzz5tka229prma42c677qkk7frq nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry nostr:npub1xanjytp3clslynd2hxlnxg32jzz9wafxj9g4x6k28sjgljasd8wq3qjlvy nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 nostr:npub1wg02ev7lfmnrwsjqu2tcm2qm4gw65aw0dyywfwvgafqnqyf02wmqhht0yf nostr:npub140axf53xswxgpeft3u908zz4ktr2uemwd5gp89djw0xezp7ahsrshesnr9 nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d nostr:npub1pnpez7cn4h04pxg07dmmklzyz7u7fm0w2ddrw220qh785rq3m42ql452zw is there some bug im unaware of?


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 nostr:npub1lwtr5uyczm20nl0vd4fht4ug52wdx34xatqetndn4cgy6q0tck0s6wq3ry nostr:npub106dam65ww9ztdqj26xvh08dyuc7lj7nmkrtrujwsmyq2n6g3r33saq3m89 did you actually finish 5.04 yet?


nostr:npub1xvspvq6p80ldc5dnqmtkvxzndx6zm0x9w2rpewm83u2nj0j75t2qcy2tnx nostr:npub1z9amdywc85k49qxcqgm5f692ztrzrzklzxpafkv8z3j9dmchwmqsfzzn6y nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 pleroma try to work properly challenge(IMPOSSIBLE)(WHY IS IT SO HARD OHFOGDOGEYODOYDITDIGSUIFLFPUDYODOYEOYDOYFPJFPFUODGKOCHX)


nostr:npub1ajw6axeack23437kedc8pkwghneenrkh9ljfxxgxumr6t6k4rtvqecaj8d nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 i tried following it again, does it show now?


nostr:npub17ypxv5a0zea46xhf8klt4gz32s7h005gqlp06zdtf2v4xa84xugqjtn7ct then why did you follow them in the first place


nostr:npub1srhg4hk63ew68kepu0znazgf9tdl089dkur5artp440htxqrc8zsqz8g90 does it show me following you on its side? shit was glitching out like hell when i followed you because federation with tor is alow
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pleroma's mobile ui is annoying, i press someones profile and i accidentally press the unfollow button holy shit


i did not expect to ramble on that far