Creative! Queer!! Autistic!!!

They/Them 🌈 Our/We 🌈
Illustrator 🌈 Subterranean by my own design 🌈 SCTV stan 🌈 I live in the back of THE GRETA GARBO HOME FOR WAYWARD BOYS & GIRLS 🌈 Mailperson put my million dollar check in someone else's box 🌈 & I'm turning to the horoscope, looking for The Funnies 🌈 I’m a fragment of the day 🌈  I liken it to a balloon 🌈

My Site: https://www.norncutson.com/
My Shop: https://www.redbubble.com/people/norncutson/shop


WHO is this asshole congressperson questioning Hur right now?!?! B


Now everyone knows that, if you can afford to delay — or BLUFF that you can afford to delay — you can get away with ANYTHING.

How is anyone supposed to teach ethics in that culture? Isn’t someone living ethically in that culture at a disadvantage?


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This brings to mind the opening shot of INLAND EMPIRE, of Grace Zabriskie scurrying purposefully down the street, eyes searching.


I hope you are all listening to the new podcast WE DON'T TALK ABOUT LEONARD, a co-production of nostr:npub1aummkhn248n8zt09dj3unuexfld2lkwn0wg05ssepy49tgkdkv0s7wu9n4  & nostr:npub16nxgzeq466nun42zslat4cgrj0r6dt4u0tdspyj7q85lpjpz8ursrjrj8k ! Episode 2 is out today!

It features The Great #AndreaBernstein & #IlyaMarritz, who I hope you remember from #WillBeWild (if not, that is NECESSARY listening!)
They have a way of telling a story that keeps you on the edge of your seat!

You NEED to know about Leonard Leo; this rich asshole controls all our lives!

#WeDontTalkAboutLeonard #LeonardLeo #SCOTUS #ClarenceThomas #SamuelAlito #AmyConeyBarrett#FederalistSociety
#ProPublica #OnTheMedia

https://www.propublica.org/article/we-dont-talk-about-leonard-podcast


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I'm enjoying this series!
Andrea Bernstein and Ilya Marritz are two of my favorites! The way they move a listener THROUGH the story makes it come alive!


“House Republicans have done nothing but feed Trump derangement and MAGA extremism three meals a day,” Raskin said. “When the monster turns around to attack them, why do we suddenly have to become their babysitter?”

https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/2023/10/05/house-gop-speaker-jim-jordan-maga-trump-ukraine-aid/


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I *knew* his story was phony!


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EL O EL.


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Same thing, I think, "Oh, i'll just warm my seat til my #DEADLINEWHITEHOUSE", but Katy Tur always delivers an eyeroller in those few minutes!
🙄


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#KatyTur just let a Republican congressman blame their McCarthy problem on Dems.
He whined, “Does a good neighbor pour kerosene when your house is on fire?!?!”

No pushback from Katy, but I would’ve countered “Does a good neighbor open impeachment hearings with no evidence?”


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I've been so proud of mine.
😔


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Point taken!


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The Friends Of Distinction - GRAZING IN THE GRASS
🌈 💜🌈
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T_tffjrItC4


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She's had plenty of tim to bail.
It's sick and sad.


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I ADORED Polly Purebred!
She made such an impact on me!


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🌈💜🌈THANK YOU🌈💜🌈


I wish that you all could feel
the way
this song
makes me feel.
🌈💜🌈
#Lush — DESIRE LINES
https://youtu.be/OiP9e4UDQFs?si=vUMvy4ho5QkI3Tix


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• When Agrestic burned down at the end of S3 of WEEDS.
They should have just spun it off into a new show altogether, because so many great characters/actors were just... gone.

• Poussey's death in ORANGE IS THE NEW BLACK. The way it was filmed was cruel, disrespectful, exploitive and insensitive to the audience. I know Samira Wiley wanted out, but there had to be a better way to tell the same story. I know they wanted to do "ripped from the headlines", but it was too soon after the murder of Eric Garner, and
when they came back the next season, they had the GAUL to center the experience of the guard who killed her!

It soured the whole rest of the run of the show.


"The first thing to understand about Trump is that he’s not a normal politician. He doesn’t give a rip about policy. What he cares about is saying and doing whatever it takes to fulfill his desires and thirst for power, including destroying democracy if necessary. Treating him as anything other than a depraved authoritarian is not only wrongheaded, but helps his cause by legitimizing him as a reasonable choice for voters. And that’s exactly what Welker did."
 - nostr:npub17qms0ez6rmzpmtvcs8qp4vmneqs90nz5h3wc4sjxje7agua7qnfqvwpur3

#KristenWelker
https://www.publicnotice.co/p/kristen-welker-trump-interview-meet-the-press?r=2hapk&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web


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Megyn Kelly's sloppy seconds. Your pushback just about as rigorous.

What a sad waste.


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And NBC framed it as "such a get!" 🙄 even though he just spewed the same garbage with
Megyn Kelly.
What a waste.


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They look so genuinely happy!
🌈💜🌈


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Thank you.
I just blocked & reported.


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What an asshole.


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Urgh, i just realized I *do* know WelshPixie as "Curator" on mastodon.art.
I feel sick to my stomach. This ends my interaction with that server.
What a terrible situation.

On: welshpixie, racism, the "white saviour" trope


nostr:npub1c7de0wdgzx7hvqxcvt3qhxm4s09a8ma46dyhnct73a5zpcc22qjs75s5u0 I want to say here that I like AnarchNina very much. I like Ro very much. I don’t know WelshPixie at all and I hate this whole mess.
Thank you for this post.


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One invite to MAR-A-LAGO and tfg would be just fine & dandy with him.

Everything about Maher is absolutely self-serving.


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See? We had a good exchange!


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Twitter is very combative, even more so now (though I left the day Musk took over).
This place is NOT combative, but collaborative, and I will do my part to keep it that way!


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This isn't twitter and I will do everything I can to protect us.


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If this person hadn't come out swinging & accusing, we could have had a good discussion and exchange.
But I'm not going to put up abuse, or my friends being abused, and it seems admins felt the same.


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What is your point?


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I don't know what they wanted from us, but they basically told us we all suck!


nostr:npub1jjjxklffpv5g899nsrj06950ve38hyc0uqmylhj0vdar59yu97zsv9z588 I'm glad you didn't delete!
Your story helps other people.


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The new #SuperMarioBrosWonder game that releases the day after my birthday!

(I have a whole list of practical things that I need to buy first, that I won't bore you with)
🌈 💜 🌈
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G0m_uNaSres


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Stray, I think you have acted with maturity and integrity all through this, and I am grateful for the documentation.
I see you as one of our strongest voices.

The moment I saw this person lashing out at MY FRIENDS on #ActuallyAutistic, I blocked them.
I'm not as mature as you!


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I love and have been helped by the #ActuallyAutistic hashtag.

I'm not giving it up.


There are so many things I could and should be doing but I feel a stronger need to nap.

This is after going to sleep early last night and having more epic dreams... Some of it was too traumatic to share here - a lot of violent imagery I don't want to mess up your brain with -, but the GOOD/INTERESTING part of the dream was that it turned out that Scorsese had made a film adaptation of Sondheim's FOLLIES back in the 70s starring Bernadette Peters, and it was only being released now. I couldn't afford tickets to see it, but I could afford a tshirt with the logo, an iconic image of Bernadette in a short, curly platinum wig, surrounded by stars. I got a purple tshirt  printed with metallic silver ink, and I was just thrilled with it, so eager to see the movie, so excited for more people to be introduced to Sondheim.
And the story of why it hadn't been released was so interesting; the studio had demanded "a happy ending", and when Scorsese & Sondheim refused, the film was locked away in a vault, never to see the light of day. Also, some key scenes were filmed in black and white, and studio executives insisted it would "confuse" audiences. But now, not only was it being released, it had been restored and remastered, looking more amazing than it ever would have before.
The screening was at a university, but it looked more like a pavilion at Disney World, all terracotta plazas, mosaic tile, fountains and bridges.
Clips from the film were playing on huge screens, all over.

The other part of my dream, the part with the violence, was I was back in NYC, but instead of a good NYC job, I was working the same job as I am now, only in much more brutal, dangerous conditions. I saw a lot of gross things.

This was instructional to my waking mind, because, whenever I daydream about going back to NYC, it always includes going back to design work, never the food service work I do now. It makes me feel a grudging gratitude that, if I am reduced to this type of work, I'm doing it here in a relatively safe environment.

The dream was so involved, and some parts so upsetting (I witnessed human trafficking and violence against animals), I guess its no wonder I need a nap to recover from my sleep.

I want to say, in my waking life, I'm not especially a fan of Scorsese, and my dream director for FOLLIES would be Lynch, because I think he has a special understanding of how the present is always interacting with the past (which, to me, is what FOLLIES is about), but in the dream, I was just so happy that this film existed!


nostr:npub1nqzzvvr02rm8eqqamu6u403a584ljdtuh0uwdqzdl5maxjn880nss7838y I'm finished with her.


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And that Welker is trying to frame the is as such a “get”?!?!


This story is fascinating.

"during the contract negotiations for the new issues, their legal negotiators tried to make it a condition of the deal that the work be done as work for hire, effectively throwing the property irrevocably into the hands of DC. When that didn’t work their excuse was, “Sorry, we didn’t read your contract going into these negotiations. We thought we owned it.”

#Fables #BillWillingham
https://billwillingham.substack.com/p/willingham-sends-fables-into-the


nostr:npub1jwv28rhjeqjzxx4t9pk88la9935skfvpq6xzwkwks7mtxt270nnq9rjeju I remember that the servant's hallways were painted a sickly pale, pale green.


Last night, I had two dreams. Two separate stories and sets of characters, but they both took place in the same house, a preserved Victorian in San Francisco. It was huge, almost a whole city block. It had servant's hallways inside the walls, so the help could move about without being seen by the masters of the house.

In the first dream, a friend owned the house, and I was visiting. I kept seeing people moving about in the house, but my friend insisted we were alone. Maybe they were ghosts; I was the only one who could see them. The house felt very threatening and dangerous. I heard one of the people/ghosts say that they were going to kill my friend's cat. I warned him, but he didn't believe me. He thought I was trying to manipulate him so I could stay in the house longer.

In the second dream, the same house was owned by a wealthy relative. I was the oldest of four siblings, and we'd been invited for Christmas. The house was scary, but in a different way: it highlighted how much poorer we were than our relatives. We were there as an act of charity, not because we were welcome. We were anxious and worried that we didn't know how to follow the rules of upper society and there was no one to explain them to us. We knew that we were expected to change clothes throughout the day, but we didn't have anything besides what we were wearing, and we wouldn't have known what was appropriate anyway.
We never did see any of our wealthy relatives. We were just left in the library to ourselves, worrying through the whole dream.


New ep of #JenRubinsGreenRoom !

"Jen is joined by master political strategist #SimonRosenberg to discuss why polling vastly overestimated the non-existent so-called Red Wave in 2022 and how the results of the special elections since then demonstrate that the electorate is continuing to punish Republicans.  They explore how the Dobbs decision, Supreme Court radicalism, Trump and his party’s attempts to overturn the election, the possibility of a government shutdown, and their inability to moderate is giving democratic candidates positive numbers not seen in decades.  Building upon the decline in inflation and other successful policies, is a Blue Wave coming?"

#JenRubin #JenniferRubin #Podcast
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https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-democratic-majority-with-simon-rosenberg/id1686973843?i=1000627711968


nostr:npub1yhrxheljm0553hpe4ajyltz0wees20zw5ppty3f6uyd77w4a864qu5g5tv I’m interested in what’s happened since I blocked them.
As far as I could see, everyone was quite deferential and patient with them, more than I could be. Did they continue to lash out at everyone?


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I blocked them and was quite happy to do it.


Also in the dream, Patti LuPone said, “The only reason anyone ever went out was to get laid or to score drugs, and now they don’t have to leave home for that!”


I realize I am old and it’s pathetic that I’m still so wound up in my family, and there are terrible disasters all over the planet and just about everyone has more pressing problems than mine.

But it’s part of my ActuallyAutistic #AllAutistics that I tell the truth (as dumb as it is) to people I care about, and I care about you.


I’m thinking about how, when I was masking, I was basing everything on sitcoms, and how I related to my family like a sitcom family, like “oh, they give me a hard time, but I know they love me”… and how that whole facade crumbled when I found out that they’d been alerted that I was #ActuallyAutistic #AllAutistics since my childhood, and refused to take it seriously, leaving the burden to me, a bomb waiting to explode my future.

It’s also on my mind with my stepfather’s recent death; how it’s been driven into my head that “family is everything, family is all that matters”, and yet… none of my mom’s sisters have been bothered to come support her. She postponed his memorial to late September, a month after his death, to give her sisters time to make plans to come… and yet, they’re not coming. At all.

It just feels like everything I’ve been taught about “family” was just hollow bullshit to keep my sister and I in a constant state of obligation, always trying to “earn” our place in this family.
It was all just empty words the whole time, and we were the dummies who believed it.


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I honestly and earnestly recommend it!
#AnimalCrossing  is therapeutic, in so many ways!
I am not joking at all!


Let’s be honest; my only real friends these days are you lot and my villagers in #AnimalCrossing.


I just didn’t realize that everything good about me has zero value here.


🌈💜🌈
TheCure — BOYS DON’T CRY
https://youtu.be/9GkVhgIeGJQ?si=12jlzr_nY3cr_lab


My takeaway from the dream is that returning to North Carolina was a fatal mistake. It was a misbegotten attempt to earn my parents love.
In the dream, I explained to Patti LuPone how, all of Sinéad’s life and career was an attempt to earn her abusive mother’s unobtainable love, though I don’t know if Sinéad ever saw it that way. She certainly didn’t explicitly connect those dots, but when you look at her discography and autobiography together, it is very clear.
On waking, I see that that’s what I was trying to do, too. In my case, I would say that not only is my parents “love” unobtainable, I would find it low quality even if I ever ever “earned” it.

I need to get out of North Carolina. There is nothing for me here, in terms of opportunity or people. It’s just an endless grind towards something I don’t even really want.


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Another detail: she was wearing a light pink sweatsuit.


I remember now that the whole dream took place in the reflection of the subway window; we never actually turned and looked at each other, just watched our reflections as we spoke.


I dreamed I was on the subway and Patti LuPone sat down next to me. She started chatting and, when I told her my name, she knew my work. We talked about old NYC, how nothing can ever happen anymore without corporate sponsorship and how that was anathema to our sensibilities and younger selves. I told her about Sinéad O’Connor’s audiobook and how it was so worthwhile, not just for the stories, but the way she tells them. She told me I needed to work harder on showing my work, that if I could only get it in front of the right eyes, I could rise above the bullshit. We had a wonderful talk that I will remember all my life, even if it was just a dream.


This made me cry for lost youth.
Not just mine, but all of ours, lost youth in general.
Teenage bedroom moments, creating ourselves. Forgotten  moments of connections dots, putting ourselves together.

How could I have gone through that, only to end up here?


#ShallowRewards #RobertSmith #TheCure
🌈💜🌈

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/shallow-rewards/id1043368927?i=1000627553529


nostr:npub1jjjxklffpv5g899nsrj06950ve38hyc0uqmylhj0vdar59yu97zsv9z588 I see so much of my story in yours.
Thank you.
I'm glad you're here.


nostr:npub1jjjxklffpv5g899nsrj06950ve38hyc0uqmylhj0vdar59yu97zsv9z588 nostr:npub17vkc5qmq8ly9ggvqyacmwp8gaxg4pfdn3sqr5pygz6mhxtqgj3ksgu9n4k nostr:npub1mewd58tz390gcnw0ml99alkzzgcuj2yg9tdsjwt45zga54rtsj8qketau6

"people who grew up before 1980 (and especially before 1970 or 1960) would not likely be screened as autistic, and instead could be treated as a "terrible, strange, misbehaved child" with resulting parental neglect and abuse (raises hand)"

This describes my situation as well. Every day, my mother would look at me with disgust and snarl, "There is something REALLY WRONG with you"... but not enough to seek help, not enough to interrupt cocktail hour.

My family still doesn't *really* believe that autism is "a thing".

I always wonder how they would have handled it if I'd had a visible disability.


nostr:npub1h7yzqeskqa432dey958m4j7kpwuu6ptguu4ku0ztpylzrn9mpz7sakpy5p
I'm so sorry, Nick.


But, HoneyPie, you’re not safe here
🌈💜🌈


The discussion on #ActuallyAutistic has been absolutely helpful and supportive for me. I am so grateful for it.

I'm sorry if it isn't able to provide the same relief for others.


New episode of #JenRubinsGreenRoom ft #BillBrowder

"Jen is joined by finance expert and human rights campaigner Bill Browder for an inside look at the corruption and oppression in Putin’s Russia that directly targeted Bill’s company and friends.  In their conversation they cover Putin’s massive theft from businesses operating there, how he uses torture and violence against his political enemies, and why defeating him in Ukraine is essential to protecting freedom and democracy around the world.  They also discuss how the bi-partisan Magnitsky Act is one of the most effective weapons in the war because of its power to freeze accounts and directly target the oligarchs behind the invasion.  Now that it is being passed in dozens of other countries, are we gaining the upper hand?"

#JenRubin #JenniferRubin nostr:npub1jxa4puqgv3am4vt2zvv8ae7tsuu238qkuqr8wq5nnhyfdfhea80qcjcz8j
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-russian-menace-with-bill-browder/id1686973843?i=1000626928794


nostr:npub1yxz09nhumgxjqalltjaz3dtmg50grxnmpukyq5hpf8jjdn2yxw3q522e8m This reminds me of DESIGNER'S REPUBLIC!


"Life expectancy for autistic people is - on average - 16 years less than for the general population. There is no clear reason for this - people do not die of autism, it is a neurological condition that affects how people interact with others, learn, and behave.

The causes of death in the inquests varied, but nearly half were categorised by coroners as relating to mental health or suicide."

#ActuallyAutistic https://www.bbc.com/news/uk-66731265


🌈💜🌈
#SinéadOConnor — HOW ABOUT I BE ME? (Pop Reggae Version)
https://youtu.be/Y9dRJ3EeOPA?si=W-hNZur2y65ZyOL0


🌈💜🌈
#AnneMurray & #DustySpringfield — I JUST FALL IN LOVE AGAIN
https://youtu.be/0bBGEMxNLik?si=QfC1RBhwwghsp40Z


nostr:npub19kr9jlq66y804t0a64adl39n5ztp3wunvaqv4q52k4cq3q685z2qu48m4r
What a bedbug.


nostr:npub18ljjwuh8vt0lrh3fe3vsefddt40u297gtsk3d4v4ywhjnvms9zfqy480hq

Absolutely not.


It hurts.

There’s a pain
in my head.

I wish it would stop.

But it never stops.

#SiouxsieAndTheBanshees — EVE WHITE / EVE BLACK
🌈💜🌈
https://youtu.be/x5GEg0D0ZY4?si=Nw4WceRs0HdNpzF_