Yo Soy Freeman

Neurodivergent  indie dev and artist from Spain who works mostly with Godot, Blender and Material Maker.

Linux user and open source enthusiast.

Fighting chronic depression.


I LEAVE A COUPLE OF WEEKS AND YOU ALLOWED NEGATIONIST INTO MASTODON?

"Science? Actually no. And if so, just buy another house or whatever"

PEOPLE OF DIFFERENT PLACES ARE USED TO DIFFERENT CLIMATES. that's why people DIE Eluc.

Wtf

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I seriously need this heatwave to stop. There is not even air moving.

Look, i am on this heatwave photo! I'm in the literal dark spot there

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If you say to my face that poverty is a choice you are going to have a very different face afterwards.

Eat the rich!

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Serious question, what is the minimum viable IDE that you would recommend to a minimalist person?


Godot volumetric clouds test

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The power of us would be too much. Universe won't allow it!


If you have a couple of dollars to spare, i could take my 5 dollars without them basically disappearing due to paypal commissions!

If you don't have them, here is a good MythBusters episode anyway

https://ko-fi.com/yosoyfreeman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iG8cYNzifCg

it's a really good episode


nostr:npub17yr7pmc0a3h7a0ykx5d04j0zdc7js0mksy8ht7wvehwpht6wh83qmy845n

Those mates seem pretty open to the community, maybe we could just ask?


You know how the developers behind Ultrakill, dusk, gloomhood and other games work under a collective? They all have their independent work and creative control, but also create and share resource between them, and are marketed and published by the same people reducing cost.

We should make a depressed/disabled/neurodivergent/low income game collective and publish things without ruining us


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Yeah, but an slide algorithm is iterative and therefore exponential with the number of characters!


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I would love to talk with people like you who are stressing it and gather some knowledge to write an artice, with credits to the people who participate and not me, of course.


Wait what? I'm reading it right? Can i like, create a resource with game logic in it and reuse it?

How do i "spawn" this "resource nodes"?

Liblast is kind of a bullet hell and i have on the nose this would be ideal for not having thousands of nodes on the scene?

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Do you know where i can find official documentation about it's limits?


I accept that a language model can be intelligent if you accept that a photo realistic portrait is a real person.


Hope you have a good year transition! Thank you all for the support you have given me as a human being this year.

I'm not looking my kofi profile until January 6 which is when we celebrate the 3 wise men. The idea is to look at it at day 6 like it was my Christmas gift!

If you want  to leave a couple of dollars under me tree you can do it here: https://ko-fi.com/yosoyfreeman


So godotforums.org "partnered" with certain survivor of the NFT and blockchain bubble. For me, is heartbreaking to see the name of Godot related to it.

Remember that "Games as a platform" do not exist. the only purpose they have is to take control over YOUR creations and make you depend on their eco systems and built-in stores.

Roblox or Fortnite are not platforms, they are exploitation machines, examples of the industry decadence.

Use tools that empower you. Be safe. Reclaim your work.


If you are reading me, thank you Brian.


I love Qodot Tho, You should use it. I don't because it needs mono now, but if you are cool with that is an excellent tool.


I'm seeing videos of hammer. Valve is the only one who understood that a game engine is mostly a level editor.

Tech people always say "Is better to use 3D modelling software for that"

But level designers never said that. Not once.

I been using blender for most of my life at this point. Enough to know is not a level editor.


nostr:npub16w7k7j7979ct8twhnaxqvwmsj0sa0ymeujsfczc3cefhjzcnl8pqte2ql3 Yeah! We are going purely physics based and found a few issues on the path. Already reported them to jolt. If we were make this to make some kind of competitive racing game i would probably had to use a kinematic body, specially for online behaviors. But lets see. This is supposed to be a really small game... Small steps.


nostr:npub1fx096525pp7y2u5t0pxlt0r357fsqlrekna5xs5lz6rxrf2qmdgql7pj36 Thank you!


Here is some early footage of the work we are working on! Is a physics based game in which you can roll along any surface in any arbitrary direction.

Remember that you can support me here so i can keep doing stuff: https://ko-fi.com/yosoyfreeman

#gamedev #indiedev

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day 4? i think is 4. I'm suffering the worst of my meds abstinence right now. Give me strength to pass this shit! Hopefully my body will be pretty clean in 6-11 days.


I just saw "The wonderful story of Henry sugar" again. That thing hurt feelings.


FOR THE SAKE OF GOD KOFI, STOP USING THE NOTIFICATION BELL FOR PUBLICITY. STOP IT. NOW.

3 in 3 days. I totally love seeing activity on my kofi page for it to be spam, not money! i totally love it. Yeah.


nostr:npub1zstuznl4ps0zqrfxgmklpk0nlg6nf4qcn7gw0xg3nd9vlatg2hnsgq3wsg He can cry, he is a good masculinity model.


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nostr:npub1zstuznl4ps0zqrfxgmklpk0nlg6nf4qcn7gw0xg3nd9vlatg2hnsgq3wsg is funny because is true


nostr:npub17g7rkuw9kp98h2x6w7nrte52rxgl6j35uk2ud4reu3ltg62c2wwqtvql79 I don't know, but i see a pattern:

-Programmers ask: Why is people not adopting this new format?

-Artist and tech artist answer: It has to many things, and the things it has are less configurable.

-Programmers: no, it can not be that. We should include your passport on it too.


nostr:npub17g7rkuw9kp98h2x6w7nrte52rxgl6j35uk2ud4reu3ltg62c2wwqtvql79 Thank you SO much mate! I'm not a man of many words but i really appreciate the support you have been giving me. I really do! A bit of humanity can go a long way. Hope you have a great day Miguel!


nostr:npub12hyyyamj37yysxwak3q04c4htd6ghwsu36sf8sq5h59dyys30h5q3fdfqj Thank you for coming to my TED talk.


Roses are red,
the sky is blue,
if you're feeling sad today,
remember Godzilla cares for you.


Seriously, there is SOMEONE that uses the embedded materials of 3D files for game development?

I'm almost all scenarios you will override that with a material in your project manager to have control.

What's the point?


Remember that you can support me here: https://ko-fi.com/yosoyfreeman


In my eyes, chronic illness is a good pathway to strong dependency if you are not careful.

Always try to give your body a breath. It will not be easy, it will not be fun. But if you keep and keep going forever you will find yourself in dark places.

TALK WITH YOUR DOCTORS and try to keep it under control.

It is better to sweat a couple of weeks a year than loosing yourself into pills.

We are stronger than we seem 💪


So long story short: I'm always on medication. The sleeping medication lost its effect again. Most people increase it. That gives you troubles.

So when they stop working, i stop taking them. Not gradually. I just do it.

And they changed it for another one, stronger, to keep my sleep controlled.

When i'm not feeling the effects of my body being destroyed by abstinence and the new meds i'm working on a cool game with my team.


nostr:npub12hyyyamj37yysxwak3q04c4htd6ghwsu36sf8sq5h59dyys30h5q3fdfqj Today i followed a strict routine of lifting weights and cry watching Kung Fu Panda. I'm unstoppable now.


nostr:npub1h7wpf6wdw5474h6drvcgaww9k42ze9prr2n9dunczvll0yr62r0q8a2yjh The best part is the "RTX on" which seems to improve light SO much it gives you a new 3D model.

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nostr:npub1h7wpf6wdw5474h6drvcgaww9k42ze9prr2n9dunczvll0yr62r0q8a2yjh Exactly. The portal RTX light have no artistic intention. At all. It looks cool in some shots. But is not the same place. It does not even have the same atmosphere. Same with quake.

Film studios spends years with thousands of people working on 3D ray traced animation for achieving specific looks because, guess what? Bending the laws of physics with something designed to imitate the laws of physics is HARD.

So here we have it. Quake in the glorious Miami light and mood.

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nostr:npub1h7wpf6wdw5474h6drvcgaww9k42ze9prr2n9dunczvll0yr62r0q8a2yjh It was so easy, right? Put the new cool models into the new cool source engine and release it.

Am i the crazy one or what?


I lifted some weights, i'm feeling better. Too tired to be sad.


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I had a great time with "Multi monitor setup with a small 1080 monitor and a big 4k TV for 3D and game development on Linux". I didn't finished it yet, the final boss seems a bit to overpowered, but one day...!


nostr:npub1e9vjxf37y2z0f3c550zu8w5e0fhtc2hvxmk4hrz824vzzedkw76slclzgz On paper, i have more in common with psychopaths than i do with good people.

how can i expect nobody to want to be around me? Even with the mask i usually fail to be socially accepted. And it is ok. If i love someone, i have to understand they deserve better.


nostr:npub1e9vjxf37y2z0f3c550zu8w5e0fhtc2hvxmk4hrz824vzzedkw76slclzgz I was born chronically depressed, i have OCD, and borderline disorder (Along other things).  I'm only alive because of the therapy. Nobody expected me to live this long. i'm only a "good man" because i chose and learned to. People can trust me because i only understand pain, and therefore i can understand them. When people is happy, i'm unhealthy to be around. I'm literally a living image of what a person without a "soul" looks like.

There is no man behind the mask.

Nothing.


Being strong is not admirable. Is a symptom. The result of a miserable life pushing you to become a harder, less human version of yourself.

I wish we didn't need to be strong.

I wish that being a good person was enough.

But is not. People will keep suffering and i can only do this or left them behind.

So let's put on the mask and the clown makeup and keep with the show.

Let's pretend I'm the tough guy they think I am.

The show must go on. I promise I'll do my best performance for you.


I don't remember the last peaceful day i had. I'm terribly depressed myself, but i force myself to dissociate. I just accumulate the pain inside, so i can keep being the strong, immutable pillar of support my few loved ones expect and needs me to be.

I'm proud of me in that sense. I never left someone behind. I use an illness to make something good.

But then i get home and the solitude of my thoughts bouncing on the walls envelops me. Their pain is mine. And there is no one i can call.


nostr:npub1h7wpf6wdw5474h6drvcgaww9k42ze9prr2n9dunczvll0yr62r0q8a2yjh Is infuriating. I don't know how much the people literally changing the industry forever pushing for Linux and the people making this choices can co exist. The release of Portal and HL RTX is also really worrying. Two fantastic remakes that are not enjoyable by most people because they slapped bad ray tracing on top to force you buy an RTX card.


nostr:npub1h7wpf6wdw5474h6drvcgaww9k42ze9prr2n9dunczvll0yr62r0q8a2yjh My exact same scenario. I know for sure there is people working harder than than ever to democratize games, push for linux gaming, open source etc working at valve.

The split between the part of the company who want's to make a change and the part who benefit from not making it is becoming bigger and bigger. And that's going to be an issue sooner than later.


nostr:npub1h7wpf6wdw5474h6drvcgaww9k42ze9prr2n9dunczvll0yr62r0q8a2yjh Not when i buyed it on release :(


nostr:npub1uwg5dsnrczvh0yd84texmwha5mn0ydqpusfeh5an254ks0vg04vqxyp3ca nostr:npub1wg6gyp45ggqq9rpdg3jan7urjpgmkyc8h2fznfg3cq5jjz6rj56srs8m2h This is the worst take ever made on mastodon about game development.


nostr:npub1uwg5dsnrczvh0yd84texmwha5mn0ydqpusfeh5an254ks0vg04vqxyp3ca No, you cant. You can check it yourself.

And yes, if we have in mind the importance of Counter Strike in the VideoGame Medium this is terrible. This is not like overwatch, we are talking of one of the best games ever made being erased from existence.


nostr:npub1se2u6fj76zn3kzhr9tmy6t9umt8ssqfxv9urkq7lpdxusl8d2qlqyyda80 Yeah, i know that. I was thinking it as a dev, if i do that to the people who value and trust my work i would call it stealing, even if it is technically not.


nostr:npub1vfhu7aelr6xh3gwqnw8zjwqv0wuzl9fejfrj9ug647ldvy3jtmkq0ke0hv Thank you so much Aras! <3


nostr:npub1vfhu7aelr6xh3gwqnw8zjwqv0wuzl9fejfrj9ug647ldvy3jtmkq0ke0hv I never seen nothing like this before and I'm seeing a lot of videos of it lately. However, i can not understand what exactly i'm looking at. It is a similar concept to NeRf scanning?


Counter strikes has been a magnificent piece of software since it's original release, but those times have finished.

I bought CS:GO which was a superb game. Now i can not play CS:GO because they stole it from my library and put CS2 in it's place.

I paid for a good game, valve, not for a counter strike looking casino.

I just can not believe VALVE made one of the worst game releases i ever seen.

If you have to block the old version for people to play the new one... is not a game is a scam.


Please share if you can.

I'm thinking of a first person character with quake like movement, bunny hop and that stuff, and texture the scene with procedurally generated pixel art textures. If you have better commendations please, tell me.

I can also create tutorials about hotspot texturing if that is useful for you. Is the technique we use in liblast for automatic texturing, we make it with fully free and open source software.


Hi. I made a new goal in my Kofi.

https://ko-fi.com/yosoyfreeman

I been needing new glasses for a while and my mother bought them for me today. This is really expensive for her and i would like to give her money back.

The price of the glasses has been 183€. I can show receipt if necessary.

I can be helpful in Game dev, 3D modelling, procedural material generation and other fields. I can do assets or tutorials of recommendations you have. You can find me also reporting bugs and helping on github


I been working hard trying to support, help, guide and provide with assets to people. I love doing it. I really do.

But with unity stuff, lots of new, really professional people have arrived and started doing what i do but much better.  I was going to work on starter templates, which kenney is doing now. So... i guess i'm no longer useful?

I don't know what to do. Since i started i gained 0.55 a day since i started. Including paid work. And i don't know how to keep on it.


nostr:npub1nlkwfmq0ulr8qurmckly9ylc87dewvp0zvq6zc3gya2fg6q7t6usd5230r Yeah, i will try and save some money. I currently have 0 dollars and i fear that trying to put a little fun game end up causing me troubles.

The horrible cycle of needing money to make money, so i stay poor xD


nostr:npub1nlkwfmq0ulr8qurmckly9ylc87dewvp0zvq6zc3gya2fg6q7t6usd5230r We are so used to release every single thing for free that never thought about how to sell something xD


nostr:npub1nlkwfmq0ulr8qurmckly9ylc87dewvp0zvq6zc3gya2fg6q7t6usd5230r Thank you! We will probably let itch.io handle it for us and handle taxes in our countries as you said. We are actually not a studio but more of a collective so it seems like i should handle possible taxes as freelance on collaborative work but whatever it is, the part that worried me was possibly needing to create a company there just to gain 20 bucks with luck. But seems like we can as you said handle it in our own countries if we use itch as intermediary. Thank you so much!


We are an international team of 3 people wanting to publish a game for low price on itch.io, taxing seems confusing. What is the most viable approach for just basically 3 mates putting together something?


This was my first 3D software.

MilkShake3D. A rudimentary 3D software but very capable in terms of exporting options, which made it the default tool for many people who couldn't afford industry 3D software.

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nostr:npub162zcaczeztccpewcpy5j2c4rlr4m95tuwf7fm9juvlnggykwl0uscdkf83 Agree! I recommend this if you are providing a set of functions than an artist or animator may need to achieve specific behaviors without actually messing with the code. That way you can provide a set of safe functions. They can call them, you can update the code inside. But again, I would recommend it for specific use cases only!


In Godot you can keyframe FUNCTIONS. You can create functions to handle bullets, snapping or any other thing and call this functions from a simple animation. Allowing your non programming folks to create complex behaviors using only the animation player.

#godotengine #indiedev


nostr:npub1xgulq04mpnqy20jmcm3vh0ymksnqut2lccu0clzgyntsaypl706sj6h9fx Oh my god! Thank you SO much Daniel! I was able to invite my mother and father to Breakfast! i wasn't able to do that since quite a long time! Thank you for providing me with the capacity of enjoying time with my family and give them a little surprise :)


nostr:npub1y3uqvhuzlk4zs9mw722d63fca74h9ufdj2m4z78f9nqmnxanh53qhqx6ek nostr:npub1edetkrr4vw4v0zplx2jey02zdc9rxv7c9ka9rulf5t4fqnrcekms53nsaa With the new implementation of moving windows of Godot 4 i think it makes a lot of sense, specially now that lots of people are migrating. Good work.


nostr:npub1y3uqvhuzlk4zs9mw722d63fca74h9ufdj2m4z78f9nqmnxanh53qhqx6ek nostr:npub1edetkrr4vw4v0zplx2jey02zdc9rxv7c9ka9rulf5t4fqnrcekms53nsaa Could you make a proposal for this? I think this could actually be core.


I can't sleep, please help.


nostr:npub1yys6ac5c9lky383j47vwawp8qwquyz25zjtmsyvujtln3rhf5caq63nf54 That looks really good!


nostr:npub1wg6gyp45ggqq9rpdg3jan7urjpgmkyc8h2fznfg3cq5jjz6rj56srs8m2h Thank you so much! Yeah, even i miss the world sometimes haha


nostr:npub12h4getudurqwx3mswqy93l4unrddcx64jd5cy5fdlm3q27kpmlhs7chyae Thank you SO much! I really appreciate it a lot! I usually don't enjoy this festivals but even I I'm starting to feel like i spend too much time in my room. So i think it will be good for me to take some fresh air. Thank you so much again!


This weekend end the festivals of my town. If a couple of persons help me with a dollar or two i could go outside and pretend to be a normal person taking a beer or something.

https://ko-fi.com/Manage/


nostr:npub1xe3scpgw2aqww48vwl5quhg4qez7x75t7lgjgn8xqvyepugjwedshyf8ud I don't know if i can legally reply with "Yes" So "Y-Ese"


nostr:npub1us32aj9uz4dcwc6dteglq5p033c55cqde6993a4yefuwf4d3vnwsncp9r7 if someone REALLY needs Unreal to create a massive, triple AAA game i guess you have to deal with it. But we indies, why? Why should i accept that compromise?


nostr:npub1us32aj9uz4dcwc6dteglq5p033c55cqde6993a4yefuwf4d3vnwsncp9r7 I would personally recommend most indies to use engines more suited for their needs such as Godot, Defold, O3DE etc. Unreal could do the same thing and Epic games is known for being one of the most exploitative companies in the world. See the constant sues because their practice to target kids, trick them to buy...

Without speaking that unreal just killed mega scans as a service and will only be on their store now.

Not your engine, not your game.


nostr:npub12fz8cqp04yq90rc86679hvfgym5w9sayphehsyevm7vvpgdhu4mqwujqer nostr:npub1em808ufzytmsge34d24wqmpffqg6h70dqprkm80pfdv5nwm52gkqzwau8q Yeah. Is sad, but the signs were there. I started working with the first public release of unity and left it when i saw that the engine was fragmenting into oblivion.

I get that lots of people liked unity, but after literally merging with a malware company... What they thought it was for? One do not merge with a malware company because of their excellent work on ray tracing.


Ok, let me clarify this:

-Unity merged with a malware company last year.

-Unity is now saying it will be able to detect what is a first install. Which is impossible. Because some kind of malware would be needed to work on your system to be able to tell unity.

Oh, wait. Do you see where I'm going? #unity


nostr:npub1uwg5dsnrczvh0yd84texmwha5mn0ydqpusfeh5an254ks0vg04vqxyp3ca That's one of the problems. Yes, the format allows (And will do even more) to handle lots of things. However, this is totally dependent of the software you are using. If i see a .obj file i know exactly what it contains dependently of the engine.

And yeah, it affects creators too. Exporting assets for this kind of all purpose formats is getting more and more bloated.

But that just one man opinion, isn't it?


nostr:npub17g7rkuw9kp98h2x6w7nrte52rxgl6j35uk2ud4reu3ltg62c2wwqtvql79 In Godot we mostly use gITF because is the the most open standard. I get the appeal of drag and drop and bum! There you have everything... Except most of the times you end up having to integrate in your project structure anyways and make sure that a re import will not get you to the default state. I personally don't find it very game engine friendly.


nostr:npub17g7rkuw9kp98h2x6w7nrte52rxgl6j35uk2ud4reu3ltg62c2wwqtvql79 Thanks for your time Miguel! is always helpful to know how studios feel this things. Hope you have a great day!


I'm sorry the joke was just there

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My inside battle between wanting a lot of diversification in the open source community and wanting every single developing masterchief out there working on a single ultimate game engine


Long story short: Unity has lost millions this last years because they never accomplish their promises. The company has dilapidated its last resources investing into AI. AI is a bubble and already slowly exploding.  And somebody has to pay for their loses.


My hot take: glTF adoption is so slow because it does a lot of things people don't need it to do.

I need the skinned 3D model and the animations. I don't particularly like to put the texture on the 3D file.

But what i'm sure i don't want to put there are physics objects, lights and totally not cameras.

I guess it makes sense for importing from blender to maya, but i don't want that appearing in my engine.

I would still be using obj if it was open.


nostr:npub12h4getudurqwx3mswqy93l4unrddcx64jd5cy5fdlm3q27kpmlhs7chyae Thank you! I try to keep up to date with all the relevant topics for the industry and improving my knowledge  about other fields. I think if i want to do something nice, even if we are 5 people, i need to be able to do a good work and not just say random things. I really love what i do and love the people who do it.

Have a nice day!


nostr:npub12h4getudurqwx3mswqy93l4unrddcx64jd5cy5fdlm3q27kpmlhs7chyae What i would consider an ideal scenario for my current capacities as a game designer/aspiring game lead is a small indie game team that allow me to have personal and quick contact with each member, and the same between them. Small enough to be able to understand what my team is best at so i don't constantly force a bunch of talented people to do exactly the things they don't know how to, which is common in triple AAA. I want to keep and grow talent, not a big company.


Thank you a lot! But i like to think we are not defeated. We are angry. And eventually, angry people can change things.

if one day i can work with a little passionate team and earn enough to have a fair live, I'll be more than happy. I know depression well enough to know i would not put the mental health of my team in risk because i want more money. same with predatory game mechanics.

I just want to make people happy.


nostr:npub12h4getudurqwx3mswqy93l4unrddcx64jd5cy5fdlm3q27kpmlhs7chyae It seems like a lot of professional tech / gaming people is considering going back to something more... Hand crafted. I hope there is still place for passionate people. Good luck <3


nostr:npub1c2teaz5wrj24e55q85m98keqj235m29npfg93g5jluf6exw3wp6qzrwy89 I thought if i fought enough i would have a chance. I even tried to work for free for indie studios.  This is the only thing i know how to do. And every day i see more clearly that i will day poor as a rat without ever getting a chance. The current state of the industry is not viable for people like me. The sad thing is that it may be the best result, because it sounds like people like me would die really soon in an environment like that.